Civil | Daily figure Yi Fangxing edits Wang Hui
"The child was found, everything is restful, thank you. Thank you..
On May 15 afternoon at 2 o'clock, qingdao Lao hill 8 in the elder sister of the classmate small large that breaks couplet again gives " daily figure " delivered a return.
In the small large of 15 years old of boys of Qingdao Lao hill, because oneself are homosexual identity, long-term since confront campus bully approach and domestic force. The most serious when, bone of left hand hand is hit to send dilocation by father, more moment are come from family do not understand and challenge: "You are sick, are you abnormal? Are you abnormal??
Final choice is in on May 14 in the evening at 11 o'clock, be missing after small gain gives out the posthumous papers of a 2000 words.
Police of place favour Qingdao gets involved in time, find its in the grandma home of small large. Subsequently, take the advantage of the opportunity of the toilet on the move, small large runs away again. Was found again at 2 o'clock afternoon till May 15.
The thing is far did not end. Small large published his class, full name in small gain, return intense criticism at the same time oneself father, teacher -- next, how will he face himself? How to face classmate and family? How to face prospective life again?
Even if leaves posthumous papers suicide, the father of small large also denies a son to fasten homosexual fact. According to " new capital signs up for " report, response of small large father says, "Do not have this to return a responsibility, he is traitorous, make up foolishly " .
The drawing near international May 17 fears be the same as day instead, world Health Organization is 29 years ago for the first time will " homosexual " move from inside mental register except, but till now, common people is right homosexual fear, indissoluble, discrimination still occurs from time to tome.
Qingdao teenager small large of 15 years old
The teenager that leave
Of small large leave, happen after the family of extreme is violent.
In the period of time this year, after giving ark to the mother, small large often hides in the room, come with evasive means runout censure.
But in the home, his nowhere can escape. Father uses axe the door break open small large, next 2 people called father and son, "My clutch lives his neck, however let go " , small large is written in posthumous papers. This probably more exasperate his father, he is captured with the hand by father first, firm firm bumps toward wall, go up to also did not know to suffer how many fist personally.
The hill of home town Lao of small large is located in the eastpart part of Shandong Qingdao city, say again in period of the Northern and Southern Dynasties " firm hill " . To small large, this may mean really " jail " . Because homosexual identity is not approved, long-term since he is almost alone.
Be being hit by father most firm when, what small large thinks at that time is, "Let my pa beat dead me. "Let my pa beat dead me..
By chance, the elder sister of small large returned the home, prevented all these. Be in a hospital, his left hand is diagnosed control dislocation to have a character. Need be in hospital becomes an operation.
On May 13, small large writes down posthumous papers before today, left hand just heal, he tears open next bandage, see the scar on the hand. "My father, a cowardly incapacity, self-righteous broken bits male, in those days the home became cruel my mother, nowadays... "
He is at ease for a time no less than oneself mothers. Overflowing walk out of aimlessly leave home besides ten lis of ground, small large made a telephone call to the mother, hope only can rehear listens maternal sound. In one's childhood, small large once had given birth to an a serious illness, be a mother a day another day he is taken care of in the hospital. He feels to there is a mother only on the world a person can understand him, so mother " large " the word lets him shake again. Small large came home.
This can make a favourable turn of incident originally. The behavior that runs away from home however is scolded by the family member again, "You are sick, are you abnormal? Are you abnormal??
This pushs small large to other one side thoroughly. Small large is written, I rushed from back door, in fluster, took the mobile phone of that man only. Right, this Zhang date is my father. I can think me to say, want to do, say to consider announcement person to me, next, leave this world. Leave this world..
He decides " with most extreme means solves a problem " -- death.
Small large posthumous papers, already was deleted at present
Original appearance
In the photograph of small gain, small large is wearing the clover T-shirt of black sleeve of a suit white bottom, taking on comely and undemonstrative face show bashful laugh slightly. You mix a such face very hard the suicide, leave connection arrives one case.
A lot of detail disclose, small large of 15 years old has its ablaze and good one side on the body.
After junior high school, the study result of small large often be among the best of candidates, in becoming parents and elder sister mouth naturally, be opposite of alien talk endowment: Exam of my home child got the first again.
He exceeded the ground 3 times to mention him mother in posthumous papers, told about its to love and be appreciated to the mother; The father that he hates even if, father's mobile phone is taken away when its run away from home, but still do not forget to say to be able to think method handle machine returns father before preparation is dead...
These are idiosyncratic also got confirm from other channel. Be in " final of competion area of Qingdao of contest of ability of English of countrywide high school student informed 2017 " in show, small large entered final of Qingdao competion area successfully.
Actually, with be the same as otherly age person is same, in the life and individual hobby, small large is a common boy.
Small large is used " Ning Yu Chouxi " the Zhang date that serves as oneself, he kept his track on the net.
He has deep love for music, in some music APP altogether collected 168 favorite music. A song that he hears at most is the singer Yao Bei Na that has died " perhaps tomorrow " . There is a words of song in this song, "More aching happier, think joy jumps over loneliness more. Think joy jumps over loneliness more..
He also has deep love for the film. Often write film review for the movie that like. The movie that he likes most is Li An's director " the hill that break a back " , an among them actor's lines that likes most " Jack, I Swear " . He is this film appearance " age old cellar " .
He also resembles other high school student same, like to play mobile phone game occasionally, for instance " Wang Zherong boasts " . This year in a card March, he returns the detailed game part that analysed his to like to use.
Reconcile with make a stand against
But homosexual identity, everything what let small large becomes heavy.
Serious one side comes from at the school. He is written in posthumous papers, "I am as a child by the person beside, students, teachers, other perhaps people satirize are satiric, boxing foot addition is grown. I also know, this is the childhood experience of many Gay. Do not know well of affairs of human life we do not understand revolt, also dare not inform at teacher family, friend, I even not dare self-approval. I even not dare self-approval..
He is summed up, "I fear, scared this world. Scared this world..
Later, small large becomes occasionally act as a lunatic pretends him, muddy height is occasionally full in thorn, retractive carapace, close oneself in the world of ego again occasionally. Final, he became a person in school solitary. His teacher complaint to oneself, the teacher takes bludgeon to hit him however, tell him, union of yin and yang just is right, he just is " the allergy of new era " .
Serious other one side comes from at the family. Before this, he to the mother one person goes ark, the mother is in go up somehow understood him. Nevertheless, other all family members feel he " have a problem " . A few days before, he runs away from home to come back from classmate home, the husband's family outside discovering their family everyone goes however, the door locks up him closely to enter do not go, he feels " oneself were abandoned. He feels " oneself were abandoned..
Again later, conflict with the force that happens between father namely, it is the operation in the hospital, be in hospital subsequently.
Small large encounters, it is major homosexual group almost encounter " fear be the same as " problem. There is no lack of even among them a few Wei important person that urge human society progress. For instance mathematician of the father of the computer, father of artificial intelligence, England, logician pursues clever, he is born at a homosexual to be made clear to be guilty time. After be being discovered, police gives him two choices: Be imprisoned, chemical perhaps castrate.
Injected hormonal later, turing more be isolated by the society, finally on June 8, 1954, turing is committed suicide to go up at the bed by discovery.
In home, the discrimination that the homosexual encounters and inequitable pay happen from time to tome, discriminate against and even the homosexual chooses to commit suicide because of the identity.
2014, issue produces because of 100 yuan after two homosexuals appointment opens a room, be patted by passerby next video explode smooth. Among them a leading role is fired by the company accordingly, sue dimension to counterpoise to also lose a lawsuit. 2017, shandong teacher Ming Jue of 31 years old also is because of homosexual identity before the parent exposure, by discharge of school square decision. Of the same age on June 6, install in Jiangsu the Huaihe River, undergraduate of a homosexual is discovered to burn charcoal to die in the home.
The closest, be on April 27. An officeholder that drills in city of Zhejiang lake state towns government works, because homosexual identity is elbowed out,reach the issue such as unfair treatment, leave abortive of posthumous papers suicide.
After small large leaves writings of an author now dead, a lot of netizens include police stop its commit suicide
Final Yu Xiang
"Kind-hearted, beautiful, have the people of conscience, I believe you can be tectonic reasonable world. " in posthumous papers finally, small large is written.
He feels, this world is right nowadays he for such homosexual group, "Unreasonable " .
Actually, homosexual group of China has quite large amount.
Our country government was released publicly first on December 1, 2004 " homosexual white paper " , say China is in a gender at present active period male queer exceeds 10 million person. And according to the world's accepted data, namely homosexual population holds population sum total 4% to the scale of 6% , the homosexual total number of chinese mainland exceeds 40 million person.
However, in this huge number falls, the suicidal rate of homosexual group and depressed rate are remarkable prep above is other group.
Intermediary reports outside, findings report of adolescent of first national homosexual shows center of American disease control, the suicidal tendency that homosexual and double sex love high school to be born should love high school to give birth to tower above than the opposite sex 4 times. The report confirms, LGB (female homosexual, male homosexual, double sex loves) the health existence difference between adolescent and straight person adolescent: Former should experience more negative and healthy conditions than latter.
To small large, he once tried to resist this " unreasonable world " . He heartens, "Face 1000 army 10 thousand horses " .
But he failed finally, he says:
"The person behind me one knife gets killed. "The person behind me one knife gets killed..
