The author is engaged in song creation having 20 old, previously also the idea that have not has had submit a piece of writing for publication. Begin from 2015, I just try those who enter some of music field to solicit contributinos. Also win some of award, the affirmation that is pair of him ～ to be liked in this respect and comfort, although do not have how much economically award. But go up in behavior at least, I no longer by the person of a few unidentified logic, consider as in blind do sth over and over again, not be to have " mental disease " . On the life, also be pair of encouragement on him spirit.
Before be approbated without what obtain these professional orgnaizations, I am in music the hobby ～ of this respect can be furtive only. Because be in other people eye -- I this interest, it is to be done in disorder apparently, it is even " not attend to one's proper works or duties " , be " infatuated " . It did not bring real income to me already, connect the mainest regular interest, cannot get the ordinary person's self-identity. So, I can be in only all round nobody when, just unlock hands or feet, amuse oneself one time.
Since after knowing my bear the palm, people just is opposite my view, had very big change. They think I am an alien no longer, just feel my interest, with average person not quite same just. My psychological pressure, just eliminated slowly a lot of.
Now, the ～ on the idea although I did not have lay obstacle, but. . . . . . As take part in the match the addition of the frequency, the bemused increasing also: that I encounter? Peach of carve of apology of fade of of over sixty years of age of of of Tuan of awake of Gou of of Cheng of mother of heart closely question does of enemy form orange red does buttock ケ sink is a Yang of vinegar of account Taoist sacrificial ceremony hot abundant of some Chuo?
Why so say? From two jobs that produced last year, let me collected an activity to lose interest to this kind.
Is its all the details such: ? Mei Panjing of Song of thistle of of steep Dan of earthen jar of sauce of Yong of short for Weihe River of arm of pancreas ツ La mires than Jia У of model of male of of of Yi of thin of nest of Qi of of ampling Zheng of correct of arrowy Chi １ gets beard to make an appointment with drought Mei of of of vomit of canister rank ㄒ lamp is firm! ! ! ! ! Ci Meng of of Xi of of ┮ of suddenly of bursa of cape of of W Mongolian oak Bi Rui of soft-shelled turtle of Sun of ≌ of melt of of card of ǚ of Tiao of station of Scandium of of of the cease that clean out ピ ?
The organizing committee of the first activity, let my pay lowest 3500 yuan song makes charge, saying is for this song (a general term for ci and qu) get very good promotion, should undertake composing to song, invite famous singer to sing reach later period to wait a moment, anyhow -- a word, want to draw out money namely. If not pay is relevant charge, cannot attend selection Yun Yun.
Say honest, at the beginning I still my mind disturbed a bit. This in case ～ this song, let famous singer give the word that sings fire, oneself also can come forward. But, I also am done not have temporarily the interest fumes a heart. For insurance for the purpose of, I collected the singer list of organizing committee enumerate designedly, go trying those who listen to them to sing a style next on the net, look to whether suit to deduce my work.
Listen through trying one by one, the result lets me to one's great diappointment! These singers that the organizing committee arranges, it is a capital the singer that the nation of each choruses calls a way, my work is common and popular style. Such collocation, it is for certain " incongruous " , oneself spent many money not to say, return the result that essential short of expects.
Still have, I carry another kind, when be being contacted with these singers, some singer ～ know to this returns a responsibility far from! Look, this organizing committee, it is completely in fish for fame and compliments, lend the name of the contest, will encircled money to stop.
So, after knowing ins and outs -- I reject pay to make charge, this matter ended up with nothing definite, outstanding award ～ also does not have a predestined relationship with me.
quadratic activity, the ～ of my as usual received the announcement of the organizing committee. Nevertheless. . . . . . Changed this, be " invitation letter " , content also changed. Where is charge? Still also want to hand in, just be the expenditure that enters spot of activity of prize-giving celebration of work of bear the palm. See ～ of this a change in form but not in content! Although this charge wants 2280 yuan only, it is to want to stay 3 days in the capital.
Consideration repeatedly, I or decision abandon receiving award. This I am to be seen through really, at present this various song collect a contest, playing all sorts of banner, it is the person that should be seleted commonly from dig down, achieve the goal of machinator gain. Real work is chosen, early by
They cast beyond the highest heavens, really lamentable!
Before paragraph time, still exploded on the net a scandal: ? Bao of summer pull offsprings fall copy?0 of У of Jia of of frame of You of Liang Gou of Chuo of of Dan of Gou of of of a surname of pain or numbness caused by cold of of Cheng of my scabbard lax head song work, it is the player of that city entirely actually. Among them this city the certain leader of philharmonic, one person still took 2 work, really " fat water does not shed alien cropland " ! Use public resource, with the name of the match, the money of taxpayer, a place of strategic importance received individual waist pack. Such activity, it is absurdity comes really extremely!
Face such current situation, I am changed feebly. I can do exclusively, also have only static next hearts come, dedicated creation, need right beside one some more comfortable, make them slowly again.
