He hated father 20 years, reconcile with the character eventually

Civil | Wang Yibo

Origin | Vista views the world

In Mai Jiaxin book " life sea sea " on the news briefing, loose fan of honored guest tall dawn is worn fan, side head looks at wheat home to say:

"Special beyond my expect, wheat home sympathizes with these people unexpectedly (content of go-between pointing to a book) . I thought Laomai this age, this all previous is experienced, in this times ups and downs, his begin to write or paint has sympathized with those people no longer. His begin to write or paint has sympathized with those people no longer..

After stopping a pen several years, be called " the father of Chinese espionage battle " wheat home did not keep work of adept espionage battle subject matter again, return childhood however, the home town that sets story backdrop in him -- in a village that Zhejiang visits wealthy in relief town.

" life sea sea " the story sets out from animosity.

Hero captain is wheat home most be good at fictile hero character. The appearance that he walks has the style of some of army officer, the waist is straightforward, the foot gives birth to wind, hold one's head high hold out a bosom.

He is whole village most erratic, people cries him privately " eunuch " . Captain has the story of a lot of legend, experienced fear of life and death and the ways of the world hot and cold, wear about circulating again in his village the scandal of all sorts of version.

Wheat home of 55 years old becomes soft.

Chen Xiaoming of director of Beijing University Department of Chinese Language and Literature is opposite in another in talking about an activity, also express to be startled a bit, "With the past strong all the time a bit not quite same, wheat home is in of this novel put very loosely finally, write love, write put in the home 's charge, reconcile with love " .

"There is too much regret in captain heart. " the wheat home say that sits before this print journalist.

His left-hand forefinger and middle finger are placing a smoke, the quadrate ashtray toward the desk is played gently, cigarette ash falls chaste tree he feels, remembering animosity is a kind of force, but greater power is to put down hate.

Say on some kind of meaning, of wheat home this be being made newly is to give of father, also be those who send oneself -- the time that he once spent more than 20 years will hate father, did not drive so that reach reach before father dies reconcile, ever also was kept apart 3 years by his son.

Captain is the perfect father in his heart, the feeling of father and son that the novel also has him to expect is deep.

Strand the person in childhood

Wheat home is not a flabby person.

Accept this print journalist to interview before today, he goes Beijing University attends " life sea sea " seminar. Honored guest of person of the same trade has Chen Xiaoming of director of Department of Chinese Language and Literature of Li Jingze of writer Su Tong, commenter, Beijing University.

Before the activity begins, he says to additionally 3: You help my platform, share with classmates more, I say acknowledgment is OK one minute finally.

Result, spot student asks Mai Jiaye talks about creation.

Mai Jiajiao is gotten " very endure hardships " , because " do not like to speak before a public occasion " . That day in the evening, he sufferred on the stage two many hours, eye not dare Xiang Yuan looks, be forced to staring at the ceiling all the time.

Here, mai Jialou goes out in interviewing exclusive smile. After several seconds pass, flabby smiling face disappears, muscle astringent, restore severe normal behavior or conditions again.

Writer introduced from the northern and western nationalities or from abroad blackish red ever described him so:

"Wheat home is born in Changjiang Delta, give birth to sweet Chengdu to appear from live scene now, do not know his body to go up however the sort of foolish in foolish gas is to come from He Fang, be afraid of occasion, do not drink, not card games, tongue of stupid mouth clumsy, bored in the extreme. Bored in the extreme..

Wheat home is very clear oneself individual character and temperament. He says frankly, these year, oneself are the so called person that succeed it seems that, but the view that succeed and did not change him to be formed to the world as a child.

"I want to pull my to belt of a sun, let him calm, magnanimous, reduce libidinal life as far as possible. Do not take care you returned yourself as a child among the follows the world intense concern of nurturance. Do not take care you returned yourself as a child among the follows the world intense concern of nurturance..

The formation of wheat home individual character and his growing experience is concerned.

1964, wheat home is born in Zhejiang to save the Jiang Jiacun of wealthy in relief town. The grandfather is Christian, grandfather is a landlord, father is hit into " right-wing " . The word that uses him himself will describe, the political place in the home " low arrived in clay " .

The discrimination that the wheat home of childhood sufferred whole village and isolated. And his father, a honest farmer, always teach him with rough way.

The memory in the letter that Mai Jiaceng writes father in takes a beating experience. In those days wheat home is 12 years old, the father that 3 classmates scold him is " counter-revolutionary " , scolding him is " dog whelp " .

For defend dignity, mai Jiayi is right 3, be hit a bloody nose and a swollen facely. He is ill-affected, preparation and do or die of a classmate.

After father knows, carrying bicker of bamboo of one root hair to come, the fan of ground of face firm firm before classmate parents two his a slap on the face, the deflect of bridge of the nose that he has gotten hurt, "Gush comes out like the gallinaceous blood that nosebleed resembles rift throat immediately " .

This two hand hit wheat home thoroughly sad.

Wheat home is in " the letter that send father " in write.

Also be thenceforth begins, the diary became the export that wheat home abreacts originally, what write inside is some " very the thing of dishonour " , was bullied by who by day for instance. After this is old, every go to wheat home to there is writing impulse in the evening. But he does not think this is a good convention.

"I do not want to keep a diary, but it resembles smoking same, drug taking is same, already addiction, do not change all the time. Keeping a diary is a kind of testimony of my dishonour, the thing that I remember is undeserved also I am written down, it is a few very negative sentiments, affection. It is a few very negative sentiments, affection..

The fist of the cool detachment of village person and father, of one mind of home allowing a surname wants to escape home town. Successive 45 years, he is being done all the time same a dream, there is a curassow in the dream, wing stretchs a meter how long, hold him from the village.

1981, wheat home left native land eventually, he enters radio of college of technology of liberation army project to fasten study through the university entrance exam.

After graduation, he is allocated to the the Chinese People's Liberation Army some army pursues technical scout job. He is in the job bring into contact with a flock of broken interpret experts, to be created in the future " decode " " plot against " work of subject matter of battle waiting for espionage laid a foundation.

Wheat home (in front of is left 2) take an examination of on military school

Have time of more than 10 years, wheat home did not step Jiang Jiacun again, even if the army of Zhejiang moves him to go back, he also is not willing. Give when the letter is being written in the home, he regards a mother only, a bit does not carry father.

The son is fast when two years old, ability first time answers native place to see grandfather grandma.

Mai Jiayi is instinctive: "Because father is caused,the sort of unfair treatment of our home is, be like his block up our development, gave us wiped in the home black, let us these children are him and endure hardships. Let us these children are him and endure hardships..

The experience of childhood is very difficult to the influence of wheat home, he ever said: "Did not have the person of icky thing in one's childhood, do not know forever sweet it is what is experienced, was brought up to eat you to also do not know it is sweet. Was brought up to eat you to also do not know it is sweet..

Became a writer till wheat home, begin to eliminate the internal injury that childhood leaves with writing.

Be forced go up the talent of hopeless situation

Mai Jiaxie passes the heroic figure of type of a lot of talents, for instance " decode " in the mathematical wonder Rong Jinzhen that is good at broken interpret password, " rumour " in the secret service Li Ningyu with day bogus deal with, " plot against " in the A Bing that has preeminent hearing. They broke away from lay life, developing outstanding talent in the dark.

But without one exception, they are real tragic heroes -- because Rong Jinzhen loses a password this and go mad, li Ningyu passes information for cost with life, abing gets an electric shock for rinse disgrace and die.

Arrived " life sea sea " , hero captain is to be forced go up likewise the talent of hopeless situation.

On battlefield, he is the doctor with excellent medical skill, holding the scalpel that a pair of bullion makes, help a person countless; Return a village in, although everybody calls him " eunuch " , but he is fervent and ad cool-headed, it is the backbone that when every family encounters a problem, appeals.

A such omnipotent VIP, by the times the move that wrap hold something under the arm, suffer adjudgement, lost memory finally, become babyish child.

A lot of essayist are the writing style summary of wheat home " of the ultimate position to the person make an on-the-spot investigation " . The character of his the wording and purpose of what one writes, always be in romantic experience, accept extremely dark destiny a hard nut to crack.

" southern the literary world " Wang Xun of editorial office director ever was the tragic art summary of wheat home: "The person that always lets him marchs toward brilliant acme, next ground of do one's best pushs his to cliff. Next ground of do one's best pushs his to cliff..

Look in wheat home, his book is medium hero, strong person, preterhuman, mix his " the misfortune of childhood, the dream of childhood, the difficulty of childhood is relevant " .

He always portrays those outside and doughty characters -- this just is him the heart is reflected flimsily, he yearns for himself to have some things, gifted they.

"No matter be " decode " the Rong Jinzhen it may not be a bad idea in, or " plot against " the fizzle outing inside A Bing of supple, a blind person, have drawback, this blemish comes from the family at me, have inherently ' blame ' , I should escape this village, need has heroic temperament. Need has heroic temperament..

Wheat home says on the activity of Beijing University, "Say from particular significance, I by the person of childhood box up, in try to escape childhood. In try to escape childhood..

Creation " decode " " plot against " when waiting for work, the writing purpose of wheat home is very clear, he considers the fact of hunting world and human nature. As a result thinks at having a comment, wheat home for the truth, by hook and crook, turn the person to hopeless situation, not hesitate even make a character death, mad.

"The fact is very important still, it is the foundation of beauty of be apt to really. If fruit is true,this are not solved, be apt to also is goody, the United States also is false beauty. The United States also is false beauty..

But search ah search, wheat home discovers those who search to the truth is not so easy.

"You found some merits seemingly, obstructed a kind again actually true, a kind true additionally one kind true obstruct, you go forth more, you are experienced morer, can discover this world it is comprised by all sorts of things namely originally, some moment may compare the truth secretly to have power more. Some moment may compare the truth secretly to have power more..

Resemble an iceberg, if the writer discloses the part under surface blindly, the part over probable surface is nonexistent also.

"The truth and secret supplement each other, resemble sunshine and shadow, it is the two sides of a thing. " wheat home Wang Xiangyuan is in, continue to say, "The person is too insignificant, the person is occasionally before reality too helpless. The person is occasionally before reality too helpless..

Repent to faulty father

Wheat home writes diarial habit, be after the son is born forcibly Buddhist monastic discipline drops, he feels oneself " become father, inside the shadow that how still lives in childhood " ?

1999, the father of wheat home threw one Jiao, within an inch of has life risk. Fast son of two years old follows the wife goes visitting, after coming back from native place, it is all the time before wheat home Yi prattles ah the ground says: Grandfather, tumble, give or take an injection, cry.

"He ases if is the emissary that God group comes, keep stimulating me, urgent I. " wheat home is in " the letter that send father " in memory. Later, he begins the relationship of active rehabilitate and father.

Later, every give wheat home a book, meet parents to send, write on their name. Take new book every time, the father that knows 349 Chinese characters only can feel page. He is shown off everywhere constantly, say the son is in " make a book " .

2008, mai Jiazhu moves recall Hangzhou to work. In those days, his heart begins to search sue for peace to solve, try to understand. Making the matter that he changes is, father got disease of silent of A Erci sea.

Wheat home hope is accompanied more accompany father, make up for young when not sensible, give oneself condonable. But 3 years of after this, father has regained consciousness to other family member, had laughed, had said a word, do not give wheat home the chance alone only.

Once, father regained consciousness continuously a few hours, the mother calls the home that urge wheat goes back. With respect to a few minutes before wheat home takes the door, father runs again answered barbaric condition. That day, wheat home bends over to cry loudly in father's bosom, and father was asleep in his tear and cry however.

2011, the father of wheat home dies. "He went suddenly, be equal to him not to give me (make up for) opportunity, this is a kind of tremendous regret to me. " wheat home says.

2009, mai Jiahui is together to native place and parents

" life sea sea " when the first stroke of a Chinese character, mai Jiaceng says this book to go up somehow is " write father " . He is opposite himself the expectation of father figure and experience put in the body in captain to go up.

Wheat home says on new book news briefing.

When becoming a son, wheat home has tremendous regret. After becoming father, he also sampled those who be person father is anxious with torment.

When the eldest son of wheat home reads high school, begin to close oneself, indulge game, wait for everyday in the room.

Continue to accept education to let the child, wheat home has asked tutor, even oneself draw out Qian Kaijiao Yo to groom orgnaization, let the child and be together with age person, failed finally.

"Child adolescence get ill when, you cannot are opposite with him go against, cannot resemble my father once using very rough antagonism way to solve euqally to me. Oppose with dot, the affirmation that wins finally is dot. The affirmation that wins finally is dot..

Wheat home says. Those a few years, the son is not communicated with him, he also does not understand a son, accompany cautiously only protect.

"The most afflictive is not to know to be met after him how, this is to hold out excruciating to parents, resembled be being sentenced the person of life imprisonment is same, just look forward to he can be one day sensible. Just look forward to he can be one day sensible..

Went 3 years, see when the son take an examination of in succession with age person attend a college, wake up to reality eventually. He learns English with the time of half an year, applied for American university successfully finally.

This paragraph of experience let wheat home have more difficult experience to affection of father and son. He says he is a person that loses father love, but when he is acting father part, not quite competent also.

"But time cannot be answered, I think my father is impossible to make up for the love to me afresh, the part that I once failed me impossibly also has been made up for afresh. The part that I once failed me impossibly also has been made up for afresh..

These lives regret mediumly, wheat home fill is in " life sea sea " medium. He wrote a few pairs of filiation, hid in this romaunt " tremendous close affection " .

"I issued very big sincerity in dark side of affection of father and son, put down a lot of expect and wish inside. Put down a lot of expect and wish inside..

The Mai Jiaye that returns home town life sets the backdrop of the story in native place. "This always should write a book that concerns with birthplace all one's life, a kind of since souvenir to him childhood, also be reconcile with of birthplace. Also be reconcile with of birthplace..

This also is why Gao Xiaosong discovers wheat home in the book " sympathize with these people unexpectedly " . Read those who give him infuse to sympathize with to Gao Xiaosong when Mai Jiating with pity when, face dew is gratified.

"The likelihood is the reason of the age, also be experience, experienced a lot of things, also considered a lot of issues. I belong to the bubble in the sort of abyss of misery all the time big, childhood is not happy, it is unfortunate blessing all one's life.

I need this kind of love and good-tempered thing particularly, need others to give me already good-tempered, also need oneself good-tempered to oneself. You must want some things put, the ability in the heart will be easy after be being put. The ability in the heart will be easy after be being put..

Wheat home says at the same time, is the 4th cigarette pressed in the ashtray before face at the same time? First.

Wheat home resembles no longer previously in that way, persistent at seeking the truth. He wants to borrow " life sea sea " implementation reconciles, although this comes true very hard, but the heart has reconciliatory desire after all is a favour.

He sends small gain to say, oneself " cherish tremendous compassion the heart drew up a broad novel " . The character of the wording and purpose of what one writes is reached reconcile, go up somehow, also be to replacing him to finish reconcile.

This year in April, wheat home goes to Beijing attending " life sea sea " before new book news briefing, went on a special trip father's graveyard.

He leaves Hangzhou every time, can go there look, because go out " shake with fear having a place " , need the protection of the father in the sky. "I tell him I gave a new book, the face placed my feeling to you and confess here. The face placed my feeling to you and confess here..

Writing is the thing that returns human nature

After 2002, wheat home publishs a novel in succession " decode " " plot against " " rumour " , these work adapt work of movie and TV again, let him obtain extremely tall famous degree.

Those a few years, he was become " the father of Chinese espionage battle " . Wheat home has rejected this kind of argument, think this is the public of the work to him read by accident, also be the label that drama of movie and TV stems from conduct propaganda to need and sticks.

But he also says frankly, "After be being admitted by person height at a draught, produced self-confident heart to explode the feeling of canopy " .

Wheat home 38 years old (2002) just publish the first novel " decode " , and blame of the Su Tong that is 1960 generation together, case, Yu Hua is in early on 80 time lifted the century " vanward literature " .

"Self-confident heart explodes canopy " a brought influence is, arrived 2009 2011, mai Jiajin enters creative work high yield period, 4 books were written in 3 years (" wind language " and " point of a knife " fluctuation ministry) .

This is not his normal. His all along is written very slow, write " decode " spent 11 years, the whole thing changed 17 times. His dissatisfactory work, scarcely is met contribute, always drop a plan that go, all over an examination through his, include the use of punctuation mark.

He ever said: "I have suspicion from beginning to end to my literary talent actually, include today. I have very big awe-stricken feeling to writing, not dare easily begin to write or paint, after been write, always also revise repeatedly, distrust. Distrust..

Time look advance triumphantly the work that publishs in a few years then, mai Jiaxian is malcontent like that.

"I am written a few that years too suddenly, a result that bring about, it is work quality not tall. " he describes the sort of feeling to resemble eating a thing to eat vomiting, hurt appetite instead.

He ever said frankly to media, in becoming him to be adapted from movie and TV, obtain after approbating, creating " wind language " and " point of a knife " when, consider the issue that movie and TV adapts not can self-consciously.

He is in even CCTV program " begin lecturing " in, to had read " point of a knife " reader excuse: "I profaned your accredit to me. "I profaned your accredit to me..

Mai Jiagong opens an apology, it is to want to increase external pressure to oneself, let oneself turn round. "I hope I am true, the thing is compared without which on the world false more terrible.

No matter be name, benefit,I feel, itself has price, if you paid the thing of greater value to exchange these, that is very not of be to one's profit. That is very not of be to one's profit..

3 years after father dies, wheat home stopped writing. He needs time rest and reorganization, raise raise spirit, set out afresh again.

Create " life sea sea " when, he decided a regulation to oneself, compose everyday do not exceed 500 words. When position is good, one day can write 2000 words, if be in previously, he will be very complacent, but now, he can stop, "Vigilant this kind of speed " .

"The novel still wants to be written slowly, grow slowly like a tree, grow slow, its quality of a material can bear fruit a bit. It returns the novel is artwork, artwork still should have mind of a kind of artisan. Artwork still should have mind of a kind of artisan..

Slow the wheat home that come down, finished with lustrum " life sea sea " . In 5 years, the person's affection can produce very big change, probable work did not draw up come, the thing that wants to write however outdated. This requirement author seeks relatively constant status, pay close attention to the person's heart and human nature.

"Achieve this kind of deepness only or after height, the test of ability withstand time. " wheat home says, "Writing is very lone issue, it is to turn over nature, turn over human nature. It is to turn over nature, turn over human nature..

All the time since, wheat home does not have interest to so called lay life. He feels, oneself disposition serves as misfortune is for the ordinary person, because cannot enjoy lay pleasure, serving as a writer suit however.

"The writer needs to maintain a distance with lay life namely, if you live very sweetly in lay life, draw up very hard actually good thing. Draw up very hard actually good thing..

But he also can give himself " ask for trouble " . He has a vegetable plot in Jiang Jiacun, when coming home, his meeting go to the fields, sow, carry dung, fertilization, reap. He says this is to withhold the content of a few lay lives.

"My friend is very few, a lot of things hand in the heart not to go out actually, can you give who? I give only literature. I give only literature..

Wheat home says, "I am not the sort of Great Master model writing, I am fighting with oneself all the time, my writing comes on particular significance say, it is a process with perfect ego. It is a process with perfect ego..