The enclosing wall that aircrew of handle of hobo Shenyang lofty becomes describes Kafuka " the castle " . Got along with Shen Wei a few in the future, we know him eventually " rubbish is classified " meaning. Shen Wei fears to lose, try to leave all useful things. But his lifetime is in lose ceaselessly.
By about a hundred are not called the person of bedlamite observed daylong, shen Wei feels he resembles " the animal that closes in the zoo " . Arrived in the evening, he eventually from by day surround left in view. He cast off a straight arm to hold high the glasses of black casing of a the middleaged woman that a some lawyer of criminal law teaching material, handwritten chipboard claims to want to marry him, crop male, the tall man that still has jacket of Xiaohuang of so long that resemble young fat person of Yue Yunpeng, dress's person, Qi Tian mahatma that takes sound box oneself, and those who come round to be publicized for cure beautiful company is thick makeup 4 people of marriageable woman group. He calls this " an activity " .
He still cast off one caboodle " psychologist " , they analyse him on the net is bedlamite. Still have those philanthropist people, although he says, he does not need to help, but they are willing to express generosity between direct seeding very much. He entered a night eventually, from the Gaokexi of Shanghai Pudong new developed area the road begins, cross Pu Sanlu, yang Gaona road, return Gaokexi finally road, whole journey about 5 kilometers. He should break up collect each garbage can, ended before at 6 o'clock in the before dawn of extensive the whitish color of a fish's belly-grey dawn.
Because talk about,philosophy is mixed classical be patted, a few days short, he becomes quick worker to go up to explode newly paragraph content. Honor and famous degree billowy and come. The outside wants to understand the scholar of this glean and collect scraps, the net is red want to be performed with him, the businessman wants to make money with him.
His quiet life was broken.
Shen Wei is surrounded to watch. Picture | Visual China
Shen Wei feels he is misunderstood. He emphasizes himself repeatedly is not answer dawn graduation, had not read an university even, what be " Great Master " . But people still is surrounded instinctively come up, act as a lunatic, move restlessly disturbed. Somebody suggests he withdraws, still neighbour comes over to help, act as " the temporary guardian of Shenyang Great Master " , that appearance room that stays in him is separated, hold off about a hundred mobile phone photograph like the head.
"Your captivity Great Master. " somebody shouts outside.
The Shen Wei in the house is immersed in the most awkward hour in lifetime. "Make fun of me when monkey, I also do not have method. " the enclosure that he comprises those mobile phones regards Kafuka as " the castle " . He is leading role K. He says to me, preparation is rereaded recently, because experience a likelihood different. But the proposal that he rejects others to call him to withdraw, because " the talent of err thing hides " , he says his method is to learn Buddhist nun of Europe root, although inferior all previous hill obscured his sun, but he is apathetic still.
"Buddhist nun of Europe root is a kind of passive resistance. " I say.
"Also not be passive resistance. " Shen Wei says, he is to be indifferent to, he feels this kind of answered idea is better. They can discover new a favourite by sb in power very quickly, very quick meeting forgets him.
Be in only night, he just can leave a period of time. That day at night, he often hears the somebody outside the door to do phonate to ring, sleep very shallowly. Before dawn is when going out at 2 o'clock, but he had been been used to.
The feeling that loafs about in night together with Shen Wei is quiet. Shanghai is called by netizens demon. At the moment Shanghai is immersed in become silent, the building that tremendous ferroconcrete accumulation rises, make person and person pull open a distance, become afresh have administrative levels and qualitative feeling. Shen Wei also from by day roaring and break away from in disturbance come out.
Behind, still 3 people follow him. Xiaochen, small the reporter that flies to come with a Beijing. 4 his hours waited outside small Chen Zaimen. He is out of job in the home, there will be an important interview tomorrow, sleep to be not worn, come out to see him. He says to me, he is seeking interior partner all the time. Small fly to come from Xinjiang outpace, bought raincoat and headlight to him, say oneself are for discharge. Shen Wei likes him this kind is candid.
Below street lamp, he becomes a dingy hobo afresh. Unkempt, mustache hangs down, the dress is pressed to get close fact, grind leather floodlight. He looks a lot of silenter also, have a few sadness even. On the way ash-bin, he can break up after all, take away " useful " . He walks along a road to come very anxious, the action is very quick also. Under photograph comparing, the make impromptu comic gestures and remarks of white day and sense of humor more resembling is do not have the soul deal with.
Lose
This Shanghai huge city, can produce 20 thousand tons of rubbish everyday. Shen Wei can find all things that he wants from inside, just want take a chance occasionally. In this day in the evening, he collected a pair of new earphone, bag of a bag of sweetened bean taste and a shirt. He likes to eat stuffing of sweetened bean taste, shanghai person be addicted to is sweet; The shirt wants air one air, prevent to become moldy, "Wash need not, I am already enough dirty " .
Such day already passed more than 10 years. He fears to lose, try to leave all useful things. 1986, shen Wei enters Xu to collect area audit bureau to work, await him in those days " the newspaper that reads no less than going to that discard, water that did not drink, data that prints one side only is waited a moment " . Although flashlight or else gives off light, he also should stay. In the life later, collect the rubbish that answer to use lot, he was hired early or late 20 come second house, oneself sleep below bridge opening.
But he feels his life is in all the time lose, cannot redeem. He was to lose father love first. About father's memory majority and fear concern: Moody, the black clouds in the life, at any time likely thunder and bolt. He cited a lot of case, drive away the classmate of the be a guest in coming to the home for instance, do not buy that to cover two many fund to him " red Lou Meng " .
He says father can get angry suddenly. In those days, father works in ocean, already 78 months did not see. "Press the scene in the film, should be to put down baggage to hold a son in arms, he is not, he is pushed heavily open the door, the bag in his hand or the case is thrown toward underground " . And his energy is used in deal with father to go up, because be on bad terms with father, he changes mother last name even.
But the most painful is to lose a book. The family member will be lost eventually, he once thought the book can accompany him to arrive dead. Have deep love for literary 60 time stranger with majority same, shen Wei gets " clump of foreign literature interpret " and " strike tomorrow " the influence of two books. He still does not like the character with high concentration, li Bai does not like, do not like from coquettish, village does not like, if Guo Mei does not like. He likes simple, " The Book of Songs " , Du Fu and Mao Dun.
That paragraph of time, he has collect books in great quantities. In the home whole 2 buildings are side by side bookshelf, "I go upstairs to seemed to go to the library, still had bought Yan Fu old edition " the weather plays theory " " . Later resettlement, these books were baled to move Pudong. But that room is very poor, was certained a hole, his book is stolen smooth.
He still lost more stuffs, because be thought to have " rubbish collects addiction " , he lost the job, long-term sick rest. Be sent bughouse by family again next. He says, after 3 months, his therefrom escaped, excuse joins the full moon alcoholic drink of son of big little sister. He says this is oneself " among lifetime exclusive traitorous decision " .
He follows family also break with.
Wait for can quarrel in the home, shenyang lofty day does not shine to go out, loaf about in road of Nanjing road, river of the Huaihe River and road of land home creek all day long. Ramble by day bookshop, see art exhibition, go watching an opera in the evening. He has described a lot of vagrant detail, go to Shanghai for instance art gallery sees art exhibition want to look for an opening ceremony, occasion disorder, escape the ticket is easy; Playgoing wants to wait for return a ticket, he once 5 horn money has bought a Shaoxing opera.
But he applies for a job again without courage. -- he is mentioned most is to do not have courage. "Apply for a job should apply for ah, want to answer their interrogate, I am overcome. " he says, follow one's inclinations have courage, took an aim, decided a standard to be no good. Without the standard, he wants how to be done how to do.
After 2003, he follows family to contact rarely. Later, father is about to die, when the little brother informs him, he already roamed about 4 years outside. In those days, he lives in below big bridge, hair chaos must be in a complete mess, called a person to be cut to him, rented a few clean dresses again, go to a hospital seeing father is final at the same time.
"Knowing is my hind, he begins to shed tear, clasping my hand, say very ashamed remorses. " Shenyang lofty answer says to calculate, await in those days, father does not know Shen Wei already driftage street, "Reconcile how possibly? Did he die does I and who reconcile? The apology just says just. The apology just says just..
But of father dead, call him to have a place " thump " feeling of. He admits to do not have feeling with father, oneself hope father loves all one's life, "With respect to this day I know have no m ore illusions about the matter, had impossibly again absolutely, ended " . Since then, he also had not bathed again. He feels oneself life " queasy " , " twists and turns " , do not consider on what tells sanitation.
Shen Wei continues so, all and OK lose, shen Wei has been lost. "What be like disloyal, because everything wants finally,desertion " , happiness also is temporary, want to end one day after all.
Do official, philosopher, bedlamite
Geleiemu Glyn says, covered its before 20 of the person years whole experience, the rest of years is to observing. Although often be regarded as look upon of a bedlamite, shen Wei is known to his however the unexpectedly is sober. He knows he is a hobo, but the heart is nobility however.
He reads Shakespeare, know the wildest story inside that. He and memory of friend Chen Chuanxi have a thing. More than 10 years ago, they ever talked about Hamulaite in a bookshop. Two paragraphs be exciting then. One paragraph is to grabbing a death's head, say the person is gone metropolis such, climb full maggot bug. Still have a paragraph about courage. Do me to tell him to ascend the son of the boat, "Otherwise you do not move, should move to Ko him in the ground " .
These are full of the word of philosophic theory, bedlamite says or, or does me to say. But that the talk was interrupted by counterjumper however. Counterjumper tells them bit sound. Shen Wei remembers till today. He says, "Have bit of feel disappointed. He does not understand, do not know this. Do not know this..
They take a side on edge of Yang Pu park, still speak of 3 buildings in the first floor of phonic resembling inn, buy " the person that steals a bicycle " and " Ka Sangde plays big bridge " , still move Oscar award all came home. DVD must be an outfit, insert in frame on have a kind of divine feeling.
Have paragraph of time, shen Wei begins to read Sibinnuosha, indulge the sort of life: Sibinnuosha relies on to grind lens cram oneself with food, other time is used do philosophy. Chen Chuanxi says, he is to rely on to pick garbage fill stomach, other time is used read.
Two people understanding has had 18 years. 2001, chen Chuanxi comes to Shanghai to work. He is young in those days, run to the bookshop to read a success to learn one day, was seen by Shen Wei. He is chased after tell him life is brief, do not read these books, should read classical, want to send him two.
After two weeks, they met. Shen Wei sends him " the analects of confucius " , annotate on is good. Chen Chuanxi fears a bit at that time, "I still was told to my friend, I say which come out a such people meet with me. " he suspects is abduct for trade, but he says he likes to try strange thing, he is Shandong person, audacious.
Think today, he feels their understanding from A to Z very strange. Shen Wei still takes him to bought a suit clothes. "He says, I follow both of you person is brother henceforth. I am eldest brother, you are little younger brother, eldest brother met with little younger brother, should buy a suit clothes for certain. Leather belt, trousers, cravat, business suit buys. Leather belt, trousers, cravat, business suit buys..
Chen Chuanxi says, shen Wei is the Sang Qiu that wants to develop him into him, sent him a lot of books, tangjihede, Shakespeare still has Sibinnuosha. But he talks about love at that time, did not read.
In very long period of time, shen Wei is a person. He hopes to look for a Sang Qiu to oneself all the time. Resemble following Tangjihede in that way, follow life of his glean and collect scraps. This person must be compliant he, take care of him, can help him sell rubbish, he can give him money. But he still was not found finally.
Shen Wei still lends money outside via regular meeting, thousands of, hundreds of, very few somebody can be returned he. "He seems to experimenting a kind of thing, he seems to experimenting human nature. " Chen Chuanxi says, oneself also had lent money to him, returned finally he, shen Wei is very trustful he.
Photograph when about a hundred mobile phone like the head to him when, he calls up Chen Chuanxi, saying is his ultimate a magic weapon, "Do not move easily to last hour " . These days, the person that will look for him is very much, he can be responded to. The problem of all kinds of strange things has. The individual says him be religious, lofty wanting Shenyang goes in temple cultivate oneself according to a religious doctrine. Shen Wei sniff, if,he becomes aware he is in Nanjing is wayside unmanned, "Also not be a kind of cultivate oneself according to a religious doctrine " .
At that time, he spoke of Raphael " Athenian institute " . If have the home, he wants to hang this picture on the wall: It is on the picture a flock of Greek, he mentions that individual that takes below a flight of stairs, regard him as example. I ever had seen authentic work in Vatican museum, what he says is Buddhist nun of Europe root.
The authentic work of the Er that pull Fei that collects in Vatican museum " Athenian institute " .
"Ash-bin and you have nothing to do "
After coming to Pudong 2003, shen Wei is in all the time Gaokexi this leads the way, when the house lives same also. His little brother lives in the village on. Hold a person in the palm to carry a sentence to him these days, everything what think to happen nowadays very lose face, do not know to return report some of what, shen Wei is very angry, "Where do I answer? Where be my home? I do not have even the home, where do I answer? Where do I answer??
To him, wandering life is not a kind of choice, however a passive result. "Where to walk along, it such, that can such " , but he does not mind. He has said a lot of times, the hope has a house, can put a thing. He is worn than delimiting, if have a large closet child, how should put disc, put a book.
Be in only night, he just enjoys calm truly. Before dawn 5:30, tian Lou gives the whitish color of a fish's belly-grey dawn. Of this night roam ended. Tian Yiliang, he is surrounded very quickly by the mobile phone again, advocate sow people consolidate step by step, a few pieces of familiar faces were greeted. "Great Master good morning! Great Master come off work ah! Great Master come off work ah!!
"My come off work, you want go to work ha. " Shen Wei answers. We are blocked very quickly by stream outside. Small fly some are grouchy, say to be fed up with them these people, utility is gotten too apparent. Shen Wei also changed deputy face, he is genial, humorous, but expression indifferently.
People is pushing Shen Wei to go ahead, "The Great Master should have a meal " , they are crying, bought breakfast to Shen Wei, round Shen Wei, standing to sitting, take skill machine to begin lofty of direct seeding Shenyang to have a meal. They like to see Shen Wei have a meal.
Shen Wei eats Debuduo. "Great Master! Tell a story to us. Great Master! " a bareheaded jeers.
"I say a story with family name a round flat piece of jade with a hole in its center. " Shen Wei says.
Small the laugh that fly splits, take skill chance immediately, begin direct seeding. He does He Tianyu business, shen Wei says a round flat piece of jade with a hole in its center of become reconciled family name is " buy partly send partly " , -- small flying band he was pushed one in the evening car -- the value that he knows flow, somebody relies on direct seeding he is 40 minutes, grew 35 thousand vermicelli made from bean starch.
That day at night, small before flying half Cheng also is filming all the time. But we walk along Pu Sanlu, around 6 lis of villages when, small fly want to stop a mobile phone. He suggests to combine a film with the Great Master, before ash-bin. Shen Wei did not agree, turn and stand below street lamp.
He says: "Ash-bin and you have nothing to do. "Ash-bin and you have nothing to do..
