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Oneself were become mother, and the daughter no matter appearance or disposition resemble with my exceptionally photograph, it is her, always let me remember me in one's childhood, every time the idea that she has what curiosity rises, I always give as far as possible cash, always feel, love her half, it is to love oneself, love when oneself. So say she should be very happy, also not be, often she has what trick to want to play, want to be distained flintily by me, hum, this is old woman plays remain.
Since begin to remember things, my mother, the child's grandmother never speaks highly of me directly, no matter others stems from sincerity or hypocrisy to become me face assist of the mother I am two sentences, she always gives out instantly real intention of the real situation is hit pressure. Since had a daughter, have the aid of at the daughter, my ability now and then win 9 commend and award, came more than 30 years behindhand it seems that, but I still enjoy sth bitter as if it were malt sugar, she is such boast: "Your Mom does not have you in one's childhood so much thing " .
What cries not eventful? Brush as far as possible namely low oneself existence feels. Regard the home as the old in, early early is about to assume the mission that has maternal young assistant, the every other in besides home comes 3 years a little sister, in I am 9 years old before, there always is an infant of 3 years old of less thans to want a canal beside the mother, the miscellaneous thing of at hand one pile, do not lie between almost can hear the mother bears even the name the surname to exclaim my name, then, outdoors, school, toilet is the main chance that I avoid side commission. Be very disobedient? At the moment the leeway that I was not him absolve, but when looking at daughter of 67 years old, I still want to be him absolve, encourage do not have, infant name is not called out, all affection helplessly looked at parents to give smaller child, the eyes that all reception go to is swift and fierce, little girl, do not think these having to bear why cannot? Nowadays I more than 30 years old, still some of kin says I am quite lazy, lazy with filial piety, have contradictory conflict certainly? Do not consider the sort of pressure of the interest that be planted by some is threatening sense that makes housework namely. Say my present home, when the mother does not come I a day 3 sweep, do not let offend dust everywhere simply, the mother comes, taking some to plant strong and roaring and to, the instant feels my fossa does not belong to me, I returned the instant again when that thinks all method to hide the little girl that helps commission. No matter what do to want to be nagged, consider talk back, feel to not worth become, not say a few words, feel to hold out grievance again. Suddenly, I am thinking, 3 years old before, when I still have only daughter, be crossed in order to wait for by tenderness? Affirmative, regrettablly, special regrettablly, 3 years old before a bit does not remember a thing.
If this article is seen by my mother, she is not willing to admit very much certainly, because of hers this is not willing, I also am not willing to write all the time. Very a lot of more article writes great mother, gu Ping's sunken mother, liang Xiaosheng's mother, shi Tiesheng's mother, the mother of the Ma Haiyi that still I am respected very much all the time, Martin, Ma Haiyin, it is the mother that deserves to raise a your work home, what they go up personally is idiosyncratic apparently, in cradle the child while, gifted the child a kind another life condition. In " be indifferent to " in, feng Tang of the maternal draw collect oneself, not, should be reductive very direct, second of seniority of Feng the Tang Dynasty, his good-tempered elder brother takes meal heart with the mother meeting halt several, analgesia takes medicine rapidly after cerebral benevolence is fond of a meal. Mother of Feng the Tang Dynasty returns sound to be like large bell full of vim and vigour, the second that gives birth to oneself all the time regards as one writes the second only the sort of 3 people that banish pornographic novel. While envy has great mother, I feel happy I am not Feng Jia extremely also old 3, do not want to have kin with Feng Tang especially, some dreams cannot be done. Good, feng Tang Dou is not afraid that blood is splashed on the spot, I this small small part, again what cannot chat.
I do not know up to now why the mother does not like him so, this bit is very awful. Do not like to be not represented do not love, mother love is natural, what I say is eliminate this kind of natural consanguineous love, the mother does not like me very much. This kind does not like to make me whole childhood is spent in dismay, self-abased feel perforative with loneliness to seventeen 8, went to distant place reading an university to me all the time, had a kind of pleasure that escape just now.
I am the girl, native place is serious male light female fierce, the person of native place, everybody fastens clamour to wear come out to object. Heavy male small female system surface of square now field, nevertheless I had not felt particularly actually, very simple, there is the boy in the home, because this, the mother got the pay of very direct inequity. After this unfair treatment is kneaded to close together by all sorts of subjective objective reasons, parental marriage is bright had red light. Elder people kind and enmity, do not carry. Father is fond of expensively later child, although not be to be the same as mother place to go out, I also jubilate to my have a little brother, at that time I had been about to grow up, and do not live together with father, just be aware of the heft of this little brother from inside the complexion of grandfather grandma, ambitious at our sister three. From this knowable, the mother does not like my the biggest reason, should be me not be the boy. Look " Dou Ting is good " , mother with pleasure, also hit for Ming Yubao rough, my cool detachment is looked at, feel happy oneself do not have an elder brother to perhaps be the same as the mother's little brother, otherwise my pay also won't compare Ming Yuhao a few minutes. I was become mother that day, the mother is done not have inform one's relatives for a short while people, because I am unripe, is not the boy. This is the regret with the biggest mother, I do not know this is the regret with how many the biggest mother, have a son, even if how make evil spirit how incapacity is shameless, stronger than doing not have. This lamentable concept poisonned a lot of a lot of poor mother, harmed a lot of a lot of pitiful bright jade, also little affects I.
In the world has how many curious erratic, have how much curious and strange father and mother. How does my mother calculate again, also do not belong to abominable that kind. Especially the mother uses up his all the time can plan for me, my growing process and growing result majority are inferior to her meaning, support I decide she does not give mostly, entire to me act cannot bear the sight of a little, but she is remained exclusive the person on that body that hopes all favours on the world happen in me.
Writing writing fast at 9 o'clock, the mother begins to break rear in me broken read aloud, the thing that I am writing she feels to do not have a bit value, my job the thing that all I am all endearment does not have value in her eye, I now is a mother, maternal pour exhortation into sb's ear is daily 3 eat teach me to say, you now is a mother, you cannot capricious cannot act shamelessly cannot do all going against to do the thing of a mother, alas, irritated. Than be being engraved so, I am a mother, I must fool the child to sleep first, when the child is asleep, the mother just can become him. Mother, with oneself experience, teach me how to do a good mother, the world mother, it seems that only " oblivious of oneself " cannot.
When in me writing train of thought is interrupted by the mother and can'ting bear discomposedly, the quiet all the time daughter in sitting room doodle comes over to enquire when I can be written, the be agitated that bear erupts suddenly, berate herself to sleep not to make trouble to me. The daughter is frightened by the growl of my arise suddenly apparently, hide quickly into toilet to turn over oneself the lock to be inside, mother not throat, conveniently hands my daughter a moment ago was in the literary sketch of the sitting room, see from her angle, I am before desk the appearance to computer, have the desk lamp, desk, computer, profile with me. Everybody, one is in chirp is crooked crooked the mother that tells him chamfer is right oneself somewhat the self-righteous daughter that exacting waits for, resemble a bedlamite same suddenly between the reprimand of for no reason oneself daughter, face is homely abominable, not character, reticent, whipped him eighteen mouth soundlessly child, run to apologize to the daughter hurriedly, because of my apology, the anger translate into in daughter eye is subdued, orbit is erubescent, nose one acid, the tear is natural in that way stream drip came out. I apologize at the same time, promise her to accompany her to sleep together at the same time. She says: "Mom, it is good that you lie beside me, you continue to write, I sleep " . Then, I still am being written, she falls asleep already, dependable breathing sound, in a way appeased me a moment ago compunctious and self-condemned.
My daughter 7 years old, I am 7 years old when, mother just 27 years old, my mother is 27 years old when, besides the mother, when does she do herself? If the logic according to the mother, once did a mother, cannot him redo, I have merely so quarter time plundered because of maternal part the time that belongs to his wantons get angry, so, where is my mother? The mother had 3 children in age of 29 years old, still be not to suffer a person to wait for the daughter that see, of herself bear be in again? Outside father give working sunrise and give sunset to just return, sisters-in-law sisters-in-law is in grandpa mother-in-law to get smiling face photograph to greet at the moment nearly, the patience that how many young in those days mother has can leave the child? Even if is such, the mother also did not touch handle 3 times to our sister, in my memory, the mother resembles me a moment ago namely at most same, suddenly between ineffable draw well, growl a few voice abreact to also pass.
I abhorrent ah, which have a mother in that way endurance, change me not to break through Cheng Jun cry on each other's shoulder early. Me abominable ah, which have a daughter in that way good-tempered, I how rejoice have the daughter's so understanding daughter. Very few and very few, hear the story when the mother talks about her to become a girl, listen to little one's mother's sister to had said a few times, say the mother is very beautiful, work bright, the mother when doing a girl has a lot of stories certainly, also had done a lot of a lot of dreams, without Feng Tang Ye has the boundless universe of other lush in the dream, also have a lot of a lot of possibility that become oneself naturally, just, she for us, abandoned all possibility.
Time cannot flow backwards, because the mother is needed by this world, can do a mother only, ask without the person she has interest to do a mother, ask without the person she has passion to do a mother, ask without the person she has endowment to do a mother, she such by time " abduct " the node that arrived to do a mother, and doing a mother with the mode of the greatest self-abnegation all the time, mother by this world owing all one's life. But, mother, I cannot make this world owing I, continue again owing female, and this world is loath also now the thing that goes making owing one, I do not do the person that is needed by this world, this world needs me to do his, this world needs every life to do his, it is better to do oneself.
Mother people, how to make up for owing to yours, it is the responsibility of this world, also be our responsibility, as children, and when all unpleasantness, happy compromise, it is the first pace of daughter excuse. On this way that makes young man and woman, I just just start, on this way that makes a mother, I should give a daughter a mother not only, I give the world even best oneself!
