I call Ulice(You Lisi) , venezuelan, this year 26 years old. 9 years ago, because of Venezuela home economic depression, to seek more opportunities, I chose to go abroad study abroad. After this, accompanying Venezuela home state worsen step by step, mom abandons everything domestic, taking little sister immigrant to escape, the relatives and friends that still stays in home people struggling in poverty and disorder subsist. This moves toward the country that break down gradually, became me to return the home that does not go forever. Ulice/ is nuncupative1996, I am born in Venezuela capital to add the city that the ministry calls Lajiasina Ao Dasi harbor, I was born when my parents is 18 years old, this is me about 3 years old when, pa Mom takes me to go vacationing, also be to be in that year, they divorced, it is grandfather grandmother raises me as a child big. After parents divorces, father had not used up duty to rear to me almost, nevertheless we concern now pretty good still, compared with father and son more resemble a friend. Although grandfather grandmother loves me very much, but childhood period, I do not have safe feeling. I do not have a law to go into the street go playing, because be awaited in those days,those who rob begin to have on the street. Grandfather grandmother should go to work at that time, parents also not very is in charge of me, a person when I still can recall 3 years old now treats the condition in the home, loneliness fears again. This is the with my father group photo when I am 5 years old. My parental age very the hour was known, this was 1992, 17 years old they (back row Zun Yizun 2) the group photo with friends. In those days, the social environment of Venezuela is OK still, although people also can tell groovy government, but basically pass very happily, pa Mom can make an appointment to travel together with friends, attend a clique to be opposite. Now, 6 people in this piece of photograph, have 2 people already expatriate, 1 person is about to escape. My family is the Everyman of Venezuela, origin is common, but they work very hard, in growing process, everything what I got I want. This is I go 3 years old with parents when island goes vacationing, illuminate in a shop, I what there is shoe of famous brand basketball on the foot sit on bar to laugh very perkily. My father likes to play basketball very much all the time, I still remember be with pa Mom in one's childhood in the home up to now the scene that the garage plays a ball game. My grandfather grandmother has 4 daughters, mom and maternal aunt people grow the gold period at Venezuela. In those days, my grandmother is a nurse, grandfather holds the position of a manager in an industry company. Go up century 779 time, they had a capacious big house, have a car, a 6 buccal people often go out to travel. Mom's childhood is very happy. Check Wei Si period to implement social policy of Gao Fuli later, impoverished population got a lot of welfare, grandfather home belongs to the middle class, not was benefited from which a lot of. This is 5 years old my mom, little one's mother's sister and me. Little one's mother's sister was married 10 years ago the United States, she is a dentist, living conditions is very good. 2005, my mom established oneself company, go into business does poineering work. Our home town Guyana the city is a haven industry city, have resource of a lot of mineral products, the employee of state-owned Petroleum Company often comes here to be away on official business. Mom's company provides the private service that rent a car for this kind of crowd namely. The economic atmosphere of that moment Venezuela is normaller, check Wei Si government to provide loan to the person that do poineering work, mom seized this opportunity. Those a few years, mom busies in the thing that is a company all the time. 2009, my high school graduated. My achievement is very good, basic when class takes an exam it is the first. At that time, I and mom had felt Venezuela appeared problem, she says, the country always sends money to the poor, is not to give them to offer obtain employment opportunity, this kind " those who award with the fish " means is incorrect. At the same time she feels educational level of home also is in drop, so she wants to let me go abroad study abroad, make internationalization handsome appearance. 2010, in 17 years old of birthday that day, I left Venezuela. I forgoed the opportunity of enter a school of a first-rate university of domestic, went to London, learn English. This was 2010, I 17 years old learn the photograph when English in London, that is I leave home to live alone for the first time, also be thenceforth rises, I know I ended basically in the life of home town. Leave that summer before Venezuela, people leaves I and home together the car goes Caribbean bank go vacationing, that is me in memory the happiest most relaxation journey. Venezuela is a particularly beautiful country, have advantaged environment and rich rich. In my memory, birthplace glows everywhere. The state that Cachamay makes in when I still remember 10 years old fed a small monkey in the park, 8 monkeys came on result horse round me. I was psyched out at that time, think now nevertheless, the sort of experience also cannot be found again in other place. Also be to be in road of that road trip, grandfather grandmother stops car, in roadside extemporaneous start dance, I took this one screen with camera. 10 years ago, venezuela still has such happy setting. In my memory, the people of home town is put outside enthusiasm, like to embrace, greet sb, kiss, glad to meet extemporaneous jump a paragraph of dance, there always is smile on the face. Just as time elapse, such setting is less and less. Before going to England, I English won't say. But after nine month, I mastered this language already adroitly. Although I like the weather of London very much, but that paragraph of experience does not calculate particularly happy, manage exotic an alien land personally, I often insomnia. Mom earns money to go abroad for me very painstaking, I do not feel those money are of course, get special province too so, besides basic life need, go out to play rarely. But dare not tell mom these again, be afraid that she is afraid. 2010, I go back to the motherland for the first time visit one's family, in the capital of Venezuela Jialajiasi takes this piece of picture. The view here is particularly good, have a lot of rivers, chute and natural park. Turn over my mobile phone album afresh, discover the photograph about birthplace is very few, skill machine is being drawn out to take a picture over is adventure having a place really. 2011, I am 18 years old, go Italy learned language of 3 months meaning, this is the scenery of the Foluolunsa that I pat. I prepare to apply for Italian university originally, but because application file gave an issue,fail to go. Venezuela has a lot of students to go Spain or the United States studies abroad, but mom feels to go these two countries are too easy (we and Spain say spanish, and the United States is having again with our about the same culture) , suggest I come to China so, she very value China, feel here develops opportunity more, and also have challenge sex more. Also be to be in this year, mom's company does larger more, realized economic freedom basically, to our home, money is a problem no longer. This is mom and stepfather, little sister is together. 2011, the little sister spends birthday 2 years old, mom held royal party to her in the home, invited about the same 50 people, still asked charmer, clown to perform. In Venezuela, not be every child does to have such birthday party, my little sister is very lucky, she was born to enjoy better living conditions later. When she is 3 years old, mom bought an IPhone to her, I always say she was mothered, I and she is having disparate childhood. 2012, I came to China, became a student studying abroad of university of Beijing foreign language, this is me big 3 when activity of international culture day enters outside north. The state of Venezuela home worsens already quickly at that time, although mom made many money, but because she passes lawful channel very hard to trade Venezuela money in home,become a dollar, so hardly method sends money to me, very long perhaps ability is sent. University period is the most difficult, I should spend a week with 100 money, that week I am basic be to rely on to eat thin pancake made of millet flour to be spent with respect to water. Go abroad from 2010 now, I had answered Venezuela 4 times only, domestic situation compares difference, leave Venezuela every time I am met depressed a period of time. This was 2013 I go back to the motherland, family person meets together, celebrate 65 years old of birthday to grandfather. What red dress wears among is my grandfather, most right is my grandmother, what left is holding my little sister in the arms is my stepfather. When I had not gone abroad, basic and weekly end meets our home to come to the side of this river, everybody a barbecue, spend daylong recreational time. But as worse and worse of domestic public security, convention of this family party had been done not have. After 2014, venezuela begins to be immersed in break down in the round. One day, I received international long distance call of mom in Beijing, she is being taken cry antrum says to me, a worker in the company was killed. He carried when off hours drives a taxi two male one female, this group of person wants to grab a car, return menace to wanted to kill him. That is not his car, was grabbed do not have a law to explain, he can revolt only. Finally, this group of person goes up toward his bosom disclose several knives, took even the person the car to be burned together next. I know, this listens go up likelihood too theatricalized, but the daily fact that this lives in Venezuela namely. Domestic life seems to be in lose colour slowly, people looks very sadness, I feel I resemble a stranger, because cannot understand their anguish. Go once bazaar, I see about the same 50 people queue up below sorching burning sun, to buy a bag of flour. See them so go hard demanding the life, I am very aching, live in Beijing for oneself even and ashamed remorses. My friend patted this in the supermarket last year in January, bowel of a packet of ham, the price is made of baked clay Er of benefit of 920 thousand Bo, and at that time income of people lowest month is 790 thousand the left and right sides, that is to say the income of a month buys the poorest person not quite bowel of a packet of ham. 2017, I again, the likelihood also is to return Venezuela for the last time, although had made psychological preparation, but domestic state still lets me astonish: When taking domestic scheduled flight, the airline ticket that I take is a piece of receipt, airline tells me, they had made normal airline ticket without money. Parade and protest are increasing, this is a cafeteria near our home, at ordinary times all round meeting somebody throws lachrymator, but people be accustomed to sth. This is a piece of photograph that the Venezuelan uploads in Facebook: The life here is too hard, the dog that connect a dog wraps around personally ensign, in the rank that joined street protest, express master anger. I heard the story of more in a extremely dangerous state from inside mom's mouth: One day my mom, little sister and stepfather drive go another city, a car stands by them suddenly, come down 3 people, taking a gun, take them in the woods, grabbed them all things. That group of person wants to also reave the car even, but because there is satellitic location system on the car, be afraid that the ability that be checked was not grabbed. Mom calls the police with cateran guarantee against, cateran ability let slip they. After the event, mom says she feels him luck is good, at least one 3 living. She does not hate cateran, because they also are be forced to do. Go back to the motherland this, I saw the grandfather grandmother that brings up me to be brought up again. I set out a Beijing that day, grandfather says with me: "Small Youlisi, you are my greatest pride. I know, this country has done not have your a place to stay, you go forth simply, even if be me,die that day, also do not come back to grieve over, I and grandmother do not want to delay you. " when I go, tear is dropped continuously, because that true likelihood is the last time,see them. Domestic state worse and worse, the person with a bit better case escapes. Do not wish all the time before mom, she believes the country can ameliorate, the eye looks at circumstance worse and worse later, for prospective consideration of the little sister, she just must succumb at reality. 2018, mom puts out a factory, taking a little sister to escape to Italy. This is the house with my original home, mom goes selling it after Italy. The population of Venezuela has 3000 much, already had 3 million immigrant and refugee to November 2018. Everyday ceaseless someone leaves Venezuela, a land that nobody live is becoming over there. Little sister to going Italy lives special excitement, mom is right however sealed hold fear, she abandoned everything domestic comes out, she works 4 in Italy now, live more betterly to let a little sister namely. This is the photograph that mom and little sister care about big profit recently, the little sister has grown old girl. About the closest Venezuela queasy, I feel is the problem of national oneself actually. Although people always is a spearhead,point to government and leader. If everybody does not change oneself, see real progress very hard. I do not watch news at ordinary times, mom also calls me not to look. Besides afraid grandfather grandmother, my whats are done. By 2018, the inflationary rate of Venezuela arrived 1000000% . 10 years ago, 1 dollar is equivalent to made of baked clay Er of 4.3 Bo benefit, to now, 1 dollar is equivalent to made of baked clay Er of benefit of thousands of Bo. More and more people on the street begin to use a dollar, the businessman searchs 0 also be a dollar. The domain such as governmental pilot medical treatment, education, public service is immersed in a disorder. Venezuelan present life condition is everybody is wanting to escape, the person that is forced to stay can struggle to live only. This is the money of a few Venezuela that I take Beijing, the Bo benefit of this kind of little par value covers with tiles Er cannot have bought what thing now. My friends are very much emigrant, stay in home be in be anxious for future. In the photograph most the Rafael of middle school good friend that of right is me, he read 7 years of medical university in Venezuela, want to become a doctor step-by-steply originally, but he considers to learn English now, work next to the United States, even if do the work of content of technology of a few it doesn't matter. The lunar income that Rafael makes an intern now is made of baked clay Er of 70000 Bo benefit, be equivalent to 20 dollars, price of a hamburger 5 dollars, a monthly wages ate 4 hamburger to be done not have -- inflation ate off the saving of everybody, no matter how they once were full of. I still have a few family to be in home, this was last year a piece of photograph of grandfather, it is Venezuela bank rear. I once turned to grandfather grandmother 500 dollars, according to the monetary value at that time, those money are equivalent to Venezuela the summation of the lunar lowest income of 150 people, enough their life half an year. Last year, my grandfather wants to do a passport, go to the United States seeing me little one's mother's sister, the result did not do all the time, because begin two years ago, the raw material that the passport did not make over there. I come to China already 7 years, I very rejoice to oneself need not face those disorders that live in home. I like Beijing very much, but the time of available air pollution is not quite good. If must spit groove, that is Beijing too big, go where wanting a flower very long. I like the chance that nowhere is not in China, a lot of things can be explored, you won't feel cheesed to China forever. Live in China, what to do very convenient, sell outside, the mobile phone pays, taxi software, I feel to won't have in Venezuela. Still have, china is very safe! Be in the life till is at present medium, I did not feel so safe to pass. 2016, after I graduate from university of Beijing foreign language, continue to read master's degree to Tsinghua university again. My study is good all the time, scholarship has been gotten 3 times outside north, read in Tsinghua grind to also had gotten scholarship twice, to this I very appreciate. Original should the Master graduates this year, but I plan to adjourn one year, consider the following road how to go. I hope my country can become better, otherwise I am not to think very much. Live in abroad old, I discover I had blended in the life of Venezuela hard, also cannot feel completely to their painful place with experience. Tell the truth, I do not think such, be in exotic it is not easy to live 7 years alone, I miss family very much. This is me all the time the different thing of collect carefully, my grandfather sends me the handkerchief, he has one drawer handkerchief, before I come to China, he sends me designedly two make commemoration day; Right is the hand catenary that grandmother sends me 6 years ago. I put this different thing in the drawer all the time not be willing to part with or use is used, this is my join with Venezuela family member, very precious to me. [this group plan article is released solely for today's top headlines, forbidden reprint! ][the manuscript is collected] the unique experience that tells us you with letter of 100 words illicit. If your story is used, we can help you draw up come, and pay 300, 500 yuan remuneration. Click head portrait of top right corner, attention starts picture column formerly " pat Selfie oneself " , give you the realest good story.