A topic reads on small gain: "Of clever gas disappear " .
Rich of valve of a beans advocate say, experience oneself clever gas to disappearing. OK once upon a time acumen ground in all affection, cry to work and laugh, can see the script gives a picture with respect to the imagination, can be understood and experience poetry, feel however nowadays, washed-up, disappeared.
I have experience similarly. Although afore-mentioned belonging to " perceptive force " the feature has not disappeared, but my imagination dropped a lot of.
Be in the school in those days, had written the novel of amour of all sorts of knight-errants, black unreal, campus, nowadays however a bit clue hold back did not come out. Always wanting logistic, logistic, logistic, frighten next oneself not dare begin to write or paint.
And nowadays, my dream becomes dull and trifling, also keep bad and dummy work gradually.
Is this how?
Dream
From memory begins, I daydream everyday.
If can sleep a dreamless is good become aware, it is extremely big happiness simply to me.
Current period, people likes to say for fun, the whats in the dream have. But at me character, old since the thing that there never has been fond dream it seems that in dream. I like a male star particularly when the university, even if the dream arrives,can meet with him, I also am his vermicelli made from bean starch only.
Why do I daydream repeatedly also want toe the line?
I am not in one's childhood such.
Await me to like to read story of mythological, blackart in those days, be an insanity with a ha confuse, indulge " treasure lotus lamp " , " white snake is passed " wait for teleplay of a series of ancient costume myth.
A dream has been made when junior high school, I write down very clearly to now:
I arrived 3 goddess are sealed in the cave of detain, to her affirmatory and regular meeting finds treasure lotus light. Next I explore cave, one another burrow gets the past.
Come up against the butcher that wears a commoners suddenly, shifting one car the treasure lotus light of multicoloured comes, ask I am bought do not buy.
It is right that I see figure, what had seen with me is same, but why red yellow blue green so much color? And should treasure lotus lamp have only?
Lamp of ▲ treasure lotus this some appearance
I in the dream also did not feel inappropriate, ask he has green only, the color of shallow green verdure, jade.
Butcher laughs mysteriously to me, say: "Then you should read aloud a pithy formula. "Then you should read aloud a pithy formula..
A pithy formula! Be, treasure lotus lamp needs a pithy formula! But nobody has taught me a pithy formula!
Dan Mengli always has idea, a pithy formula appears suddenly in my brain, then I am blurted out, read aloud a string to butcher: "When childish of Yu Yi child, can open one's eyes wide is right day, be perceptive of the slightest... "
Butcher says again and again is, say to look the heir that I am treasure lotus lamp, drew out from back then true, the lamp gives emerald green Bao Lian me.
... I remember the dream from the back not clear, but when I still remember awaking at the outset, I experienced because of bona fide teleplay clue breathes out greatly at the same time satisfy a craving, one side is open-eyed of school ancient prose " recital full text " actually so thorough my subconscious.
Similar this kind of old practice that enters world of mythological, fairy tale, knight-errant, blackart, often once appeared in my dream.
When be infatuated with small meritorious service, I have the classical method that flies in a kind of dream: Double foot is fast around change foot, the body is lighter and lighter, lighter and lighter, until wave --
I had flown each block, double foot cannot stop -- when be being moved quickly, I will be elevatory all the time, be moved slow, can drop slowly.
The old person says, fly inside the dream, it is to growing stature. My stature did not grow, but had flown in the dream sea of lake of mountains and rivers-land, saw earth of a poetic name of China.
Do not remember one year which beginning, I do not have a dream to had gone to such flying again.
After-thought rises, still be to yearn for the sort of footloose, do a job with skill and ease to fly on the feeling that flies very.
Bai Rihuan thinks white day is imagined
Junior dream is not the place that I put flying imagination exclusively.
Although regain consciousness when, an all sorts of daydream also skip in my cerebra. Have in the home with me about the same tall baby, I use a practice everyday " topple the mountains and overturn the seas " military accomplishment.
When junior high school, I wrote a knight-errant to pass through novel, the hero is " I " , receive a machine telephone call one of these day, from now on be involved in a knight-errant world that can be entered at any time and exits -- principle and " happy heavenly body " about the same.
I was written inside a lot of get the clue that laugh, the schoolboy with the best achievement in the class, attend class the novel that reads me is read lower one's head hold back is worn sound guffaw, not careful gangmaster bumps on desk.
That is the person that I am created as probably, in life the most successful the hour of feeling. Although I guess him,forgot this thing early.
I still am in " small Sirius " stick serialize " Ha Libo is special " relative times colleagues, wrote an east daughter advocate, the name cries " put · moxa on the ice " ... want to come nowadays, it is a Malisu.
Old hind pay a return visit is stuck, after discovery abandons hole actually very long return somebody to chase after.
An impulse wants add to write, can be as expected: I now cerebrum a blank. Work everyday, these vocabularies of Insight, Informative, Add Value, Fill The Gap are in brain.
Let me suddenly imagine the next story in human nature wants how to continue to develop, I was accomplished very hard however.
Angst
Once I can be obsessed with external the world, produce a lot of wonderful dream and imagination accordingly.
" treasure lotus lamp " such, " Ha Libo is special " such, " the suspect is tracked " such also.
I am enmeshed again hard at a story nowadays, but real world comes since close however attention. Even if see bit of dummy work, also should associate, the real significance that unscrambles it.
Meanwhile, I become more ego, also more utility.
"Utility " not be to say me to stare at Qian Quan disdain sensibility and ideal, closely, say however, I enjoy those very hard again " useless " thing.
I often am " wasteful time " feel anxiety.
I had recorded a dream 2020: "The dream says to want to attend art class to the teacher, my angst ground is thinking this class to should steal the homework that becomes subject of which the university entrance exam.
Will suddenly look at a flock of very serious people to call us to hand in all things, xu Liu paper and paintbrush, this time of class makes creation must not be done only other.
I in the dream that is flashy very happy, begin to ponder over what should draw some of what amusing immediately. Begin to ponder over what should draw some of what amusing immediately..
In reality, I of student times am not a person that has deep love for study, have not does two more than me because of others " useful " inscribe and angst passes, also like to write useless thing very much, attend class write a novel, writing Duan Zi is commonplace.
But become two this years unexpectedly utility, that is the sense that creation feels excited flashily in the dream, I had not experienced for ages in reality.
From when to rise, I become angst, feel the thing of amusing is making no use, ought not to do?
This dream hit me. Answer when me see oneself once the surprise of multicolored dream, multiple passion, meet by chance, just realize look in that way " insignificant " the life has many wonderful, it is the ego that how formed one part.
Did not go after in me " grow " when, have deep love for and imagination gave me to grow.
And nowadays, I am gone after blindly " grow " , pursuit " efficiency " , forgot OK but travel place love, Mowen future.
If cannot pick up the dream that has magnificent for a short while, that from work pay no attention to " useful " begin.
Poetic wine takes the advantage of time.
