Reconcile with the mother, reconcile with the world

Be born firstly eventually, we are cured in ego

" old woman does not know why, must oneself build a house, and still must build 4 rooms, saying is to want our elder sister people three one person, she follows old father, I said with her, not need top is so big, I won't come home at the same time again with you spend the New Year, but you are guessed, what does Mom say? She says, a few times doesn't your sister need to reunite? Doesn't all the year round get together get together? True, enrage me dead! How to say not to say to connect with her. How to say not to say to connect with her..

Eldest sister is in in the phone in Pi bang, say all sorts of strange flower think of a way of groovy old woman. After I was hearing a word of eldest sister, phoned a mother to Your Excellency immediately, according to 1, 2, 3, the dot elaborated him to cover the fraud part of the house to her, affirmatory we can give money certainly, let her carry secondhand the room is bought, follow the house place of old father old age as her.

The following day, I am heard in eldest sister mouth, old woman says I do not agree to give money, no matter be a lid,the house still buys a house. Really, I compare Dou E to be treated unjustly even simply, what say obviously is not to let herself build a house, want to change a living environment, best method is to buy off-the-peg secondhand room, buy secondhand doesn't the room want money? My behoove assumes that share that I should assume. Be forced to compromise finally, the bottom line that decided two to must build a house (estimate one's abilities, quantity money) , just give this issue uncover the past.

The time that I come home one year, two finger break come over, inside this limited time, we present the front that those who come out is father Ci Zixiao, but when encountering essential sex problem, we do not know to use why to plant means will be communicated with parents, probably, parents also does not know to should use what kind of manner to face grown children.

Socially, on on-the-job field, we can attend a meeting discuss, the topic for discussion negotiates, reason is treated, least of all aid, also can hit greatly, a bird in giving a heart is angry. To parents you try with this action, they change minute minutes debate topic, stand on moral commanding elevation, criticise you are not filial, the manner is not deferential, was person daughter, humanness child the qualification does not deserve to have, minutes minute you from spirit is long kind most advanced degrade of animal sacrifice domestic animals. This one setting is very ripe, like unlike heat sows recently " is Dou Ting good " medium Su Dajiang snarl the occasion of 3 children? Such parents is too common in daily life, this drama sows down to, "Make dad " the resonance that causes whole society.

Least of all that action of aid, on parental body, absolutely experiment does not get that.

That year, I for reference definitely in the home grind, my Mom returns the home to take care of me from working place. The dusk of sprinkle of a summer, we eat a meal, the idle on the small stool that sits in the doorway chats. The rain that perhaps is Changjiang Delta lets my feeling rise without exception, elementary school speaks of with my Mom since one fashionable " fun " -- summer vacation of the hair on the class works this, two money, my Mom does not give money (knowing is to do not have money to still not be willing) , the teacher goes up in the class my rebuke (this pupil to having self-esteem, that really disastrous great event) , be forced finally but, the teacher still sent two exercise to give me originally.

This thing goes to what this ended to also be not held out good, but my Mom, did not know to be developed how brains, sent two money to the teacher again. Day, want to tongue-lash very much, old Mom, are you to play me? Let me be scolded to the teacher for nothing.

In that moisture, have the summer of bit of air cooling, I asked to hide in the 10 the coming year in my heart, bemused all the time problem -- Mom, you do what to send two money to the teacher again later, am then I to get a scolding for nothing? Want to give with respect to breakfast to you really! Flat perhaps did not give, save two Qian Ke to buy snacks in order to give me.

Ask this question, to me, it is one kind is put down actually, one kind frees oneself, one kind reconciles with what old Mom plays so. Even, have the answer to not matter to me.

But me, did not wait come the explanation of my Mom, etc came ineffable and wonderful shout abuse (substantially is her good to mine I do not remember, bad thing writes down one a large bamboo or wicker basket) , I try to explain with her, I can speak out to had represented me mind no longer, but she is determined not to listen, such, we spent a very bad night, and it is very at odds a week.

Later, I think again, I asked this question, for her able to crack oneself up, handle an issue on behalf of her undeserved? Still say educational failure, her so small complex issue, can be her daughter written down? Good, to now, first to her act and I ask her manner after this thing, I do not have an exact answer.

My Mom all one's life eager to do well in everything, be concerned about face-saving, love vies. In a married woman's parents' home, she is n/COL the head of a family old (grandmother is ill abed all the year round) , one say one; Marry me after pa, also be take everything into one's own hands of inside and outside (my pa all the year round outer work) , because gave birth to 3 daughters by village person bright in dark in derisive, it is to pledge more should come out daughters to education.

This kind of eager to do well in everything, vie, be in young when, can struggle on be contaminated, the flavour of encourage annals; When senile when, made the impression that laugh a bit -- the coat of the fur an organic whole that my Mom can feel her gives my uncle mother to say: "This is me big daughter gives buy, I do not want, she must be bought to me, with a ha breath out... " the following day, my uncle mother was wearing her new fund woollen sweater to come, "My daughter-in-law buys this to me, winter dress but warm. " more do those who laugh is, the silver-colored bracelet that my Mom buys, led the village fashion simply, in senile woman hand, besides design and color different outside.

I had seen a word on a book -- there is a daughter in maternal body. False with time, we also can become maternal appearance, disposition, no matter be good, bad, bad not bad. The rest years, we will kiss the exert a subtle influence on on the body to come down from the mother together, what we think bad, go undertaking make a stand against, battle, it is the most popular now with former unripe family cent rift comes. These are good, bad, bad not bad, ignorant even without that one part that become aware, meet again as hematic arteries and veins, flow to our children silently, waiting for them to go judge, go struggling, go continueing.

Reconcile with the mother, also be the one share with oneself goes reconciling.

" I that girl " in Mr. Gao Yalin says -- parents, it is the one side wall between we and Azrael. Mother to me, it is a wall, it is a harbour, it is beacon, be the noise that give out mutters in the mouth when I am the most painful, it is I am original, also be forever forever home.

So I go up in the issue that handles old Mom now, all blame are principle controversy, entirely is ambiguous its thing, only the person arrives middleaged, ability is clear " god-given and muddleheaded " true justice; Encounter principle problem, listed the bottom line of its 1-2-3, if you must ask, if my Mom broke through the bottom line of 1-2-3 how to do? That... that can plan this thing to be not principle problem only, the person is living, dry must follow oneself stronger?