Author | Chen Chen
Editor | Gu is columbine
" this is a the worst thing that does in my trainee career. " compunctious mood hits Yang Tairui suddenly.
That was Feburary 2018, yang Tairui crosses the Spring Festival in Harbin native place, and the small town of movie and TV of Langfang big plant outside more than 1000 kilometers, 60 trainee are " God trainee " the position evaluates the task hard rehearse. The Yang Tairui that has been washed out fails to become one of them.
In be in the festive atmosphere that spends the New Year with family personally, and on the network, this archives lifts China " God the first year of an era or the reign of an emperor " choose excellent program, caused pay close attention to and discuss tremendously. " indescribable " regret strong emerge, " I why not exert tries hard, also stay in big plant, go all out together with them? "
Yang Tairui washs out his end to be " corrupt play " " train hard without 100% ground " , especially when arena appears first, he did not show a full actual strength. To make up for a regret, a week was stayed in the home, he hurrieds back Beijing, threw training afresh. The 2nd year, he " valiantly, full of mettle " the ground attended " creation battalion 2019 " .
However, counterattack story did not happen. Again, he is in the first round fall into disuse, was affixed by the outside " flesh of the most miserable cook again " label.
Open-eyed hitting him with unwilling mood, a week stayed quietly in his hotel in Qingdao, until return Beijing, still be at ease hard. Later, he persuades himself: Each respect preparation returns state of mind of specification be washinged out and business insufficient, want to continue hard, increase actual strength.
And the other one side of the story is, choose beautiful heat rapid and refluent, the profit gain play chess between platform and broker company makes huge black case. " red " it is to lean actual strength, effort or lot after all, also became vexed " a philosophical sect in the Wei and Jin dynasties " topic. Be in individual over, dish the knot is worn the market, capital, audience hard the variable that the palm accuses.
Tidewater fluctuate, had attended " God trainee " that group of boys, in the industry tremendous rise and fall in collide, drift along. Some people, with dim or if really definitely attitude leaves, and more people, with Yang Tairui, still awaiting.
In these stories, leave and leave similar difficulty.
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Disappointed
Yang Tairui cries rarely, when facing camera lens especially. Be in " creation battalion 2019 " the spot that is washed out, his hold back lives tear, end till transcribe, just hid into the toilet to cry. " because I do not have the success with too great what all the time, I think, tear must leave a success that day, is not now. "
To successful longing, it is agog at the beginning, the first doorsill, go out namely.
2015, yang Tairui high school graduates, go to Beijing attending choose excellent program, after the sea is chosen, went to a company when trainee. In those days, he is full of an illusion to future, a path hind is in brain " scene " . However, practice ability a month, he feels to the training life of day after day wearily, " every day so experienced, when can go out. "
Parental idea is very traditional, urge he comes home attend a college, " it want what to do is OK to want what to do, but must have card of graduate of a college first. "
The pressure of disappointed mood and parents let him abandon this paragraph of trainee living, recursive campus, went to Shenyang Normal University studying. But he does not put those who leave pair of male groups to have deep love for from beginning to end, he begins Beijing, Shenyang again two ground running, training and switch relapses in study.
To the front of the autograph end 2017 restricts AIF entertainment company, he already was experienced classics a few companies, and every time, it is arrive from the hope disappointed. " be in all the time speak. A company should go, go up again a company also should let me go out, but not was in all the time on the road. "
Yang Tairui attends " God trainee " arena of first time perform in public
A lot of trainee that set foot on this road, with Yang Tairui, had had the experience that gives failure. Zhu Yun also is such, at the beginning of 2016, he and first time of day of Zhu Yun of twin elder brother are become trainee, but just 3 months, they left that company.
To them, that is a paragraph of brief and bad experience. The company is to expand male round business for the first time, management is confused, " the boss is very rich, but without giving thought to,he throws money only, the person next gains fund with respect to. " agent pocket funds, collude with dance teacher to manipulate account cost of embezzle class hour, also made motion on the daily expense such as food.
Agent buys famous brand package, deserve to have assistant, and trainee people, at the beginning, " food is gigantic good, nutrition is balanced, add meat again " , later, food worse and worse, turned the cheapest box into the meal, have only even " a green vegetables, a tomato fries an egg " .
Finally, all trainee left that company, zhu Yun also went together with day of bright red divide evenly. That company also did not run male round business again.
The experience of this paragraph of failure makes him right did male round God to generate suspicion, accordingly, when " Xin Rui " the magazine invites them to become, at the beginning, they refuse.
The controller at that time sits from Beijing Gao Tie persuades them to Hangzhou, they experienced the sincerity of the other side, promise to meet with the other side. Talked about 34 hours with the other side, they still rejected to invite.
" without other reason, do not want to make male group at that time, feel future of it doesn't matter. " Zhu Yun says.
Attend " God trainee " when the Zhu Yun that gets hurt accidentally one
Demon unreal
relatively, plum the trainee experience that let appears a lot of more successful, he goes out before long after trainee.
2017, a of he or American Denver university big 3 students, when the school puts spring holiday, he answered Chengdu to attend " cheerful male voice " sea choosing, obtained Chengdu smoothly to sing the qualification that 50 strong break out of an encirclement surpass area decisive battle.
To continue to play the game, after spring holiday ends, he did not go back study, " but I just asked for leave that was washed out momently. I am muddled at that time. "
Suspend one's schooling already cannot cancel, hold to God industry " illusion " he, the decision tries different way in this paragraph of time. As it happens, he received the illicit letter of trainee of stars recreation recruit on small gain, went to Beijing attending interview.
" I am in an university when roister quite, the school organizes spring sing late on my metropolis dance, so I went. At that time is to him illusion is met for certain how, because feel oneself are gifted. True at that time pretty is self-confident. " he says.
Interview was passed smoothly, he is judged for B grade, and system of stars recreational education is, if be judged to be S class, need not hand in groom on cost course, other social estate needs to pay fee. Plum let be being handed in 68 thousand hind, became stars recreational trainee, board and lodging provides for oneself.
After attending the class that a month controls, in July 2017, li Rangcheng for member of male group of stars recreation provision. In August, he comprised MAMA LAND with additionally 4 trainee 5 people male group, go out formally.
CNK male group. Graph / small gain
Nevertheless, plum let express, what he and stars recreation sign is trainee grooms the contract of the project, broker is about held water in July with of the same age exceed can disc signs, latter boss Wang Youlu is one of stars recreational partner.
Besides the two companies complex concern on capital, stay in the company long later, plum let detect slowly, a few look in him not quite the latent capacity, child that does not suit this road also was enrolled to take a company, this lets him feel malcontent. " once was chosen,take this route because of a child, mean him to chose not to study, if studying, life road of future or pretty (difficult) . "
He also thinks over, enrol him to take the agent of stars at the outset, very good to him at the beginning, but, the other side is to value his really, be because,still outstanding achievement pressure?
Every enrol a trainee, this kind of agent can take certain proportional deduct a percentage from a sum of money. To raise outstanding achievement, they can be mixed in small gain tremble illicit letter is sent to the person everywhere on sound, often still can pull a person to go to a company in 3 lis of collect interview. Have many times, he is wearing guaze mask to go in 3 lis of collect, come up against somebody to ask he has interest to do trainee, he feels very demon unreal.
The thing of unreal of another picket demon is, last year " 3 · 15 dozens of holidays " when, have report company of this kind of trainee is to deceiving people, make offerings to with a large number of rock-bottom trainee paying fee the free trainee of a layer, still describe he and rich of a surname grow into so called trainee carrying a layer on the head.
" I enrage scamper, do not know where to say really, I am good injustice. This society has suffering to say really not clear. I still am in a company at that time, I jump out impossibly what to say again. This very do laugh, good demon unreal. "
Plum let. Graph / small gain
Check without this group
To going out, plum let feeling of it doesn't matter, feel a bit abrupt even. " did not give us a sense that gives formally, abrupt, very abrupt. Actually we resemble a student at that time same, go there (point to a company) attend class, also do not have salary. "
After going out, MAMA LAND did not arouse any spray, group member also is changing ceaselessly, the member is exited, again new member is joined, turned into by first 5 people group 7 people are round, the name also changes by MAMA LAND for CNK.
But announce as before very few, saying is to had gone out, actually, they are in " check without this group " condition, and be fastened when trainee time difference and not quite.
Had crossed eventually when Yang Tairui give this doorsill, he just also discovers, give path and him to be become for the first time the imagination when trainee is different. And compare when trainee photograph, the distinction that gives is not big, " after going out, without the word of any fame, others also won't feel you go out, the likelihood still feels you are a trainee. "
After taking AIF company, he and company are other 4 trainee comprised male round GOLDEN AGE, went out formally on November 22, 2018. He describes that is " a common day " , first pieces when go out confuse your special and MV to be in each line on big platform, he and teammate people attend dancing class in the company as usual.
They tell dancing the teacher, " we go out today. " the teacher answers: " wow, you go out. Good, continue. " they train dancing then.
" without what extraordinary sense. Because not red, with when trainee it is same, we know so that continue hard only. " Yang Tairui says.
GOLDEN AGE male group. Graph / small gain
Give the operation after the path, round to God physical ability is denied have one's moment, crucial. The broker company of nearsightedness is eager to changing now, did not groom to actor and the abidance of work is devoted, and trainee is in after going out, what because resource and person are enraged,also meet is insufficient and feel fall, be faced with the materiality that does not have any activities to disband even.
In " Xin Rui " magazine of that controller persuade repeatedly below, zhu Yun is mixed day of bright red divide evenly or with them the autograph was made an appointment with.
After the autograph is made an appointment with, everything looks very successful. After taking two months of company, the company goes with respect to a few trainee that arrange him inside Korea grooms, be in Korea transcribe a path only music and MV. Solstitial 2016, they publish first only music, with CATCHERS5 person the form of male group goes out formally.
But did not pass how long, at the outset chief left his post, " " Xin Rui " want to earn fast money namely, one part money was invested before it goes out, after going out, did not undertake to us the ground is thrown persistent again, think we earn money rapidly. The boss did not see result, (opened that controller) . " Zhu Yun says.
After this, they also had not sent a song again, announce is very few also, " also basically did not groom. Everyday we also do not know to work, the condition that did not work lasted very long. " not only such, according to Zhu Yun the view of one, besides 3000 yuan of extra allowance for living expanses of every month, company never to their settle accounts any announce charge.
They must strive for resource actively for oneself. October 2017, zhu Yun is mixed CATCHERS is other member, took for oneself " God trainee " opportunity of sea choosing interview. However, after interview is passed, the company objects them entering this file program. Until should surprise to love art the last day that sends a contract, the boss just signed loathly on the contract.
CATCHERS is in " God trainee " grade is performed first
Zhu Yun is recollected, arrive at the beginning of November, the dormitory lease that the company arranges to them expires, but without relet, they are forced oneself look for a place to live, go to big plant attending till December " God trainee " transcribe. Later, the message that they send to the boss also cannot get a reply, " say with him we have a meal to eat not to rise, take a steamed bread everyday, he does not answer us. "
Second year in May, zhu Yun is mixed other member to " Xin Rui " the magazine offers cancel a contract, " that moment, the program just ended, we want to have development for certain, he does not do you again, putting you, that does not have method, can end an agreement. " after the company rejects cancel a contract, they entrusted attorney office to mention to the court lawsuit.
" a word that the boss says with us, it is to let us do not think those who go down to stay, press that straw of dead camel, he says, do you think your youth is very costly, my youth is not costly. " Zhu Yun says.
Cook again flesh
CNK male group goes before long hind, super- can disc arranges them to attend " God trainee " sea choosing, final, 4 people pass rich of grow of Li Ranghe a surname, Wu Lianjie, Qin Junyi sea choosing, obtained the rank that does not calculate difference in the program -- be in 40 above.
They were cast off eventually " check without this group " corner, but the person is enraged still not tall. Li Ranghui recalls that paragraph of time, besides best Lou Zibo is ranked in the program, he and other two people basically are in the condition that did not work, " the professional name that encircles with God is told, it is foot of dig or dig out with a finger or sth pointed is in the home. "
Organization activity is not much also, and basically be to interview, broadcasting station program perhaps awards prize celebration this kind of announce. Till July 2018, the company just rolled out the 2nd only music for them.
He can continue to attend only anthology beautiful, seek next opportunity. He attended two years continuously " Chinese new e.g. comic dialogue " , but be washed out in sea choosing, for the word that uses him, must want to find his camera lens with microscope ability.
" Chinese new e.g. comic dialogue " the 2nd season
By last year, he still attended " the teenager's name " and " of tomorrow child philharmonic society season " sea choosing, did not pass. This year, he went up again " interesting put together art new image " anthology beautiful " serious people " , go no further 35.
He go attending every time anthology beautiful count to apply for a job, although be washed out ceaselessly, state of mind is very gentle also. " organic meeting goes, it is them invite me. "
To Everyman, as working experience accumulate, to apply for a job is met probably more successful. But the God industry of green to eating meal, the age is older, more " devalue " , attend ceaselessly anthology beautiful mean ceaseless " cook again " and " depreciation " .
Yang Tairui also is such, the operation of although the AIF company of his place is right male group more attentively, go out one year, issued 3 pieces to confuse your special for them, still filmed a few small round put together, arranged vermicelli made from bean starch to meet meeting, but did not arouse how old billows, members must be devoted into again choose excellent program.
The teammate Lin Ran of Yang Tairui and GOLDEN AGE, Tang Xin, Li Jingze, went attending together " creation battalion 2019 " , besides Lin Ran, someone else is first-run be washed out namely.
Later, he what take on as dancing, went attending again " this! It is street dance 3 " . Be seleted certainly 400 strong hind, he used the choreography between 4 climate, hurried to Shanghai to keep apart half month subsequently, mix in training camp again other Battle of hundreds of players, trained a week, final ability comes 400 into the formal transcribe link of 100.
However, he did not get the towel of captain Zhong Hanliang. The 3rd, he is in first-run be washed out. In positive, his camera lens is not worth a minute.
Yang Tairui. " this! It is street dance 3 "
This is he is affixed " flesh of the most miserable cook again " the cause of label, although he himself not care a continental. " cook again flesh is a kind of pride to me " , because " cook again " mean " a kind to the dream hold to and pay " , " never had abandoned, still be in hard. "
But the industry welcomes new face forever. " youth has you " when picking a person, call-over clearly to had not attended " God trainee " player. Yang Tairui this name poplar Yi, attend " God trainee " when, what he uses still is this name, and attend " creation battalion 2019 " when, he is incognito for Yang Tairui.
" because of Yang Yi this name cannot go up " creation battalion " . I give a name is Terry, want to think otherwise poplar Terry, they say English name also is no good. That with respect to Yang Terui. I say to fasten, yang Terui is not Orphean, (name) Yang Tairui. "
If attend,choose beautiful it is to apply for a job, so, be fallen into disuse to also mean unemployment ceaselessly. And unemployed, mean without income. No matter be Yang Tairui,still be plum let, their source of income, still basically come from parents.
AIF provides room for GOLDEN AGE member, also meet cost of settle accounts announce, provide certain subsidy to them, dan Yangtai luck still feeds him very hard, " major fund is support inside the home. "
Super- can disc does not offer board and lodging, until from " God trainee " return a company probably after 3 months, li Rangcai begins every to take a company month of 2000 yuan salary, to the front of end north floated in May 2019, li Rangyi earned in all be less than 20 thousand money.
Have a month, plum let receive an advertisement, earned 7000, increase on 2000 yuan of wage, that is the income of the biggest brushstroke that he earns two years in Beijing. " I feel at that time is a huge sum of money, have a kind, mom, the feeling that I made money. "
Plum let. Graph / small gain
Not reconciled to
Went two years, zhu Yun is mixed " Xin Rui " the desk of broker contract dispute of the magazine still does not have open a court session, this makes his development more difficult. To carry exposure, zhu Yun often opens direct seeding and vermicelli made from bean starch to chat a little while, recently, he is considering it how do nearsightedness frequency is good to how do nearsightedness frequency do nearsightedness frequency.
He has tried to shaking the day on sound more, lie between a day more, but after updating frequency to rise, view an amount very low, growth of vermicelli made from bean starch was immersed in backwater for a long time also.
The mainest problem or working chance are little, can be how much to earn how many flower only, feed oneself constrainedly. He also is considering, otherwise should open store of a net, sing with what other income will maintain his jump career. " spoken parts in an opera, it is very important that this age makes money, otherwise you do not maintain even the basiccest life, how to still continue in this industry? "
Day of elder brother Zhu Yun has decided to abandon doing Idol, but he still wants to retry try, enter since travel, his happiest hour is a station from beginning to end when stagewise.
He hopes to be able to have larger stage, be seen by more person -- although he " did not feel oneself can be red " .
Zhu Yun one. Graph / small gain
2019, CNK combination is disbanded, li Rangye left to exceed can disc. Without the company, also do not have what resource and income, he temporarily between lost definite way, the decision ends north to float, come home adjust position.
Already he 27 years old, meet when male group chooses excellent program to invite his past interview, still can try, but he also knows, the scope is uncertain, he is unlikely to went out with the identity of male round Rapper again.
But he does not plan to leave this, " I have to a genre of popular entertainment consisting mainly of talking and singing hold read aloud, it is true ground has hold read aloud. " he answers recall to attend " Chinese new e.g. comic dialogue " when the 2nd Jihai choosing, performed oneself with confidence to create " Let's Talk About It, shall We " , result, pan Wei cypress did not give him chain, he was washed out. But he " did not have sad " , feel oneself can be revived certainly.
He waited two days in gymnasium, eventually when renascent link, however, in the person that is revived, do not have him. " good, so I blind self-confidence. "
He begins to write a song from November 2017, at present till, had given 22 songs. He has illusion via regular meeting -- " this song needs fire " , activity is done not have after song is released every time however. " that issues. " now, he has issued a piece of special in preparation.
" make music, come slowly, fundamental actual strength I am some. I hope to be able to make the music from personal style one day very much, people listens to know the song that is me. " plum let say.
Yang Tairui also did not leave this think of a way. Come 5 years, a lot of trainee that he knows left God trade, exited recreational group even, but he is very sturdy, he must do male round Idol.
" a lot of people say I am a Rapper or Dancer, but I can say I am an Idol only forever. I love this from high school, may be to satisfy oneself vanity at the beginning, but arrive when trainee now, 5 years, had become a kind to hold to from vanity. " he says.
Yang Tairui. Graph / small gain
When high school, yang Tairui begins to like the God culture of Korea, on pink Quan Zhilong and ballproof youth group, begin to look for their video on the net, ground of a movement imitates a movement, the dance that learns them.
When second year in high school, he is pulled go to work on 4 classmates give him to be a dancing partner, performed Quan Zhilong in the school " Crayon " , after the acclamation below the stage is mixed, go in the feeling that the school is known, let him liked to go up to stand stagewise performance.
Became truly when him after trainee, major while is danced and a genre of popular entertainment consisting mainly of talking and singing is occupied full, " my life already all was enveloped by these. " and paid time is longer, experience fails for many times more too, he is even more sturdy -- because of not reconciled to.
" pay so much year, the person beside was changed change again, saying word is that one forever, you are very outstanding really. But you cannot get what redound tardy however, instead can hold to many times. " Yang Tairui says.
The arena head show after GOLDEN AGE goes out was June 2019, in Zhengzhou. They performed 3 song, below the stage, vermicelli made from bean starch people doing them to answer roundly aid situation " GOLDEN AGE universe the first good " .
Yang Tairui feels special happiness, " I am the happiest is to be able to appear on the stage to perform. "
After interviewing an end, he says to me with bowing 90 degrees of standard male group " worked hard " , " elder sister, wish us two years this can red. "