Civil / Chen Renan
01
Kind melon gets melon, kind the beans gets a beans, because can be told,worldly thing always has so, have mark but abide, what young moment has stolen is lazy, often will become the hand that throws a face.
Liu Ge is a in the home shirttail kin, speak of his thing, I always am not self-conscious remember " very close to each other 2 " in if Ni Yong Xiaochang hangs in mouth edge: "Come out to mix, want to return sooner or later. Want to return sooner or later..
In those days, liu Ge serves as the home medium alone child, everybody unusual to him good-for-nothing or queer character, hold in both hands be afraid of in control fell, contain in the mouth to be afraid of changed, can saying was to suffer all kinds of favorite, because such, also caused Liu Ge's unbridled.
Go to school of discipline of small off year is worn adult smoking drinks, follow the social youth dawdle of outside school all the day, often still be in the school new problems crop up unexpectedly, bunt teacher, bully a classmate, be late truant, fight affray, as long as can want mix into with him of bad word dirty edge one foot. Everybody saw him bypass and row, want him not to affect other fellow student only, the teacher also opens an eye to close a key point hold the post of him and go.
In the school Liu Ge looks at nobody to dare offend him, feel extremely big the ground is big really with respect to the day he is the biggest, once everybody studies by oneself in scheduled time in evening, his person sneaks away a school gate and Lu of a gang of scoundries are strung together, because the person of adjoining desk did not take care to touch,issue him, did not think of the bench since brandish of Liu elder brother broke the person.
Later, the parent of that child that be hit is biting this matter to be not put, the compensate in the home a large sum of gold just avoided record file, but Liu Ge or the opportunity that because this was lost,go to school, but he or the hardship that lose sight of parents completely, cannot know to was drawn out almost in reparations home De Chaotian, because he cannot read,what cannot show sympathy more is parents Mian of angst gain and loss. To him himself character need not read is suiting purpose, can have more time and dimensional idle away in seeking pleasure so.
Wherefrom moment rises, he is to be in everyday hemp of card games rub, drink bubble, day and night conversed, clothes will stretch one's hand, the meal comes spend in dehisce, such day continues to the girl that meet unexpectedly likes all the time, look at bright eye to age white heart is moving he shrank back, the other side is graduate of famous brand college, liu Ge careless and casual connects a job to be done not have, he experiences the feel sad of too far behind to catch up with for the first time.
Also be in fact such, he still does not have intention of confide of there's still time, the girl had chosen well_matched boy to marry, a person drank the Liu Ge that is informed a message a lot of days frowsty wine, wait for awake he disregards parents hold back, cleared away simple baggage to go out work, when he is goggle see world ability Jing become aware he resembles a frog of the bottom of a well, also sigh with emotion oneself without a single redeeming feature.
He what junior high school did not graduate wants to seek a decent job basic it is an incredible story, in the again and again by he chose to go after close the door on restaurant apprentice is become chef, and that ability is truly provoking beginning, old hot days must carry the sweat with big beans on the head bead surround converter fire, people can sit before the desk to enjoy delicacies of every kind, he can wait only when doing not have a guest, hide in narrow hind hutch gathers up two meals.
Long-term lampblack is affected, clean before handsome face stack blain, even abdomen also registered a few natant rings, say like him himself however: "At the outset the pain that oneself do not take, now twice returns come back, without money, without record of formal schooling, without experience, particular without the qualification environment and choice are comfortable, no wonder others, all these is the debt that owes before oneself. All these is the debt that owes before oneself..
What there is for no reason at all originally between this world is good, also do not have odd in a wretched state, chose temporarily comfortable, future needs be this sooner or later the portion is comfortable buy sheet, chose instantly it is difficult to greet and go up, ability is able to see the flat country of ahead.
02
Reality is very brutal, the society is very complex, popular feeling is lying between belly from beginning to end, have the decoy of person of contemptible scoundrel bluff, what also have hide a dagger in a smile is crafty, have the thing between scene of debauchery more desire crosscurrent, begin petty gain, later always is expensive all the more.
In those days, classmates are doing final sprint for the university entrance exam, and friend Li Qi as before apathetic, attending class is not catnap, play game secretly namely, issueing a class is inordinate more, run quickly continuously the Internet bar upgrades with a flock of so called young associate dozen strange. Finally, the achievement of the university entrance exam comes out she also is cared about in makings fell a list of names posted up, but under choose the private school with high cost is read.
If the person can wake up to reality, also be priceless of return to the fold, regretful is Li Qi is not thought of not only repentant, become aggravated instead, escape not just the class becomes addiction, lazy cancer enters pith, and begin vanity cause trouble. See chummery girl people carry Miumiu new fund on the back, she nots hesitate beguiling parents took money to buy a package, so far later she more and more do not close to oneself want to buy buy bought shopping desire, let this not wealthy family be immersed in economic predicament.
Corporeal supply and demand of parents more and more fill dissatisfaction the desire of her mind, she is changing the law seeks the mess card that can raise his, because battling,a few minutes of good looks looked for really small those who have capital fund is rich 2 generation. To her Maiamani, enlighten abstruse, LV, Ji Fan hopes, take her to have diversiform delicacies of every kind, in shedding Lian Nihong light every day. Li Qi thinks this is right person's right lifestyle oneself, then again and again the dream of deep-set pink hubble-bubble does not wish to awake, for this, it is to disregard more objected retreating in the home learn.
She is certain the girl is again fierce be inferior to be being married well, later also early enter marriage, when remembering marrying, she sent a trends to bask in the gold of the whole body to sparkle, marriage hind also is to send enjoyment type life every day, just gradually she begins to become have never been heard of since. Think in everybody she went up too when the life of the person on the person, she appeared suddenly again the night fair of native place.
Original, she marries to discover bedside person is not fine person before long, love pickle, drink beautiful wine, often have an affair with with the girl not clear. When her big abdomen hopes the man can be a few nicer, did not think of to be rancorred: "You eat me, those who drink me, live my, what qualification is in charge of me, cannot bear boil. " that momently she connects a contradictory word to be done not have. The child is born later, the husband dies as before the gender does not change, it is even when the mood is not suitable still can be opposite addition of her fist foot, she besides cry or can cry only.
She dare not revolt, because think of to want to go out to fend, oneself lived skill is done not have, want scared to extremely, balance issues her or chose to bear again and again so. The child cries be troubled by, create difficulties for sb of husband's father and mother, the husband is overbearing, she does not know she has been met so hardly, should take care make her Yan Zhi is retreated gradually, the husband cold-shoulders her again and again not quite beautiful, final two people with divorce wind up, and this also is her more painful beginning.
The book that does not read previously, the effort that is not willing, be in now ask for to her with more high-spirited attitude, she lost corporeal supply of the man, also must be on working road.
Do not have place by her abrupt very confused, him thing that sees net of to apply for a job want to do is insufficient case, can achieve a requirement oneself do not look to go up again eye, with respect to such hands high key point is low to poor proper headgear, just was forced to accept a job that sells the clothes. The salary that lives quite only lets her again also consumption of financial insolvency brand, just can go up in night fair so and family argy-bargy.
That day, see her a little gaunt face, I realize suddenly: The where on the world has so much shortcut to be able to go, we everybody cannot escape to grow this some is hard on the road. Even if ourselves forgot once ignorant, but time does not lie, wrote down each Zhang strictly, it is the effort that before wanting to return, owes sooner or later.
Original, our prevaricate passes read student limit, we are illegible the working experience that pass, the life extract that we had been affectedly unconventional, have mark one by one but abide, and bag bag turned to still return him body finally to go up. Actually life is such, can perfunctory often is a period of time, pass too mix or want oneself to repay.
03
This also lets me answer a phase that him recall reads, await me to often lie on the bed to brush small gain in those days, see teleplay, ramble clean out treasure, the business that loves to do most is bemused, it is white day makes a dream actually.
Be in like Wang Xiaobo " golden age " in write: "I am 21 that day years old, in the golden age of my lifetime, I have a lot of extravagant hopes. I want to love, want to eat, still want to be in flashy become the sky half bright half dark cloud. Still want to be in flashy become the sky half bright half dark cloud..
I had imagined myself to be awarded the position of student union chairman suddenly, the station is in the center of table speak with fervor and assurance, there are a flock of classmates next, still hear thunderous applause from time to time. I had imagined family of family of him major exam to rank the first, take in those days top level fellowship, go where experiencing the small eyes of favorable reputation and envy.
I had imagined myself to be able to encounter true life the emperor, two people are riding bicycle to shop city, pulling hand mountain-climbing to see sunrise, everyday beautiful conjugal love drops dog food. I had imagined book of him bellyful poetry, song of word of have words poem is endowed with, exit is classical ana, become great master the focus in the eye.
The gate that joins student union in fact however did not stride, sit in next rouse hand to others completely. Also do not carry obtain scholarship, do not hang division had been very lucky. As to encounter true love this thing, it is the bulb that became a lot of times. Do not have the literary grace of bellyful more, put a lot of manuscript that quit however.
Because I do not understand " be about to take, pay surely " truth, I chose to lying better off means, that is disinclined to read a book all the year round, be disinclined to attend class, be disinclined to talk, be disinclined to go out, be disinclined gregarious, be disinclined to spend time to precipitate well, be disinclined to arrange oneself a few more delicately.
Ending me greatly is very sad, sad one part reason is he thought a lot of, however one also fails to become true, another part reason is he can become nicer person obviously, however because lazy and lost a chance.
Later, think oneself simply too blamed, come to realize I what come over begin slowly evil fill in front the homework that falls one year, give evening early to return everyday, also wait for midday intellectual dot is carried on the back in reading room. Because big of one not aspirant, let me one whole big 2 more painful than a lot of people, others maintains the speed advancement of one pace, I because the go no further in front not before, to chase pace have to desperately run.
Everything has punitive justice, once lazy loosen ego, later must awl of head hang oneself from a beam is pricked, and so the reason of effort is to do not buy very expensive sheet for today's laziness in the future, after all the person cannot be dropped same hole is not two.
Familiar to the ear of no less than can the instruction of detailed: Do not go hard today, will run with respect to hardship tomorrow, the world is fair, what early days passes is too relaxed, later period wants to be paid more necessarily.
04
" Daolin Grey's picture " in say: "When you have youth, be about to experience it. Do not want empty to cast your golden age, do not go listening attentively to as dry as a chip insipid thing, do not try to persuade the failure of all up to stay, do not give your life ignorant, commonplace with low common. Do not give your life ignorant, commonplace with low common..
Not when after 10 years, look later besides fatigue with each passing day body, slowly aged appearance and endless compunction at the outset besides, what is nonexistent.
Not flatter oneself is very clever escaped first of one besiege beat, actually otherwise, just 15 had not come. Never person can survive struggles, every age level has the task that differs severally and the effort that should make, if you dropped a certain level chain, so receive go down to always have a level you must new pick up is repaired.
Must remember you are not willing to take the pain that read, be about to be faced with graduation to be equal to unemployed crisis; You are not willing to try hard in the job, be about to must accept the hardship that fends in reality; You are not willing to buy sheet for his desire, chose temporarily comfortable, cannot refuse can of bow and scrape choice.
Destiny, it is inevitable medium accidental, it is accidental medium inevitable, each choice is accompanying relevant price, must not ignorance is trying dawdle, did not have you otherwise hard susceptive is brutal.
Always remind oneself: Tomorrow your life about, your place that is today certainly is, pass too easily now, it is nevertheless after leaving difficulty, after all life passes too mix, always want to repay.
