Of spring promising is not wind

Of spring promising is not wind

Shui He [achieve formerly]

Although went more than 10 years, but I still cannot forget the sunshine that day, the wind that day, a pile of Gong Gong that cannot forget that returns dazzling than sunshine in father hand is green green money.

-- introductory note

Experienced an endless winter, spring came eventually.

Then, there was warm color in sunshine, air is much mediumer downy breath, in cropland also the hope that bud gave Qing Cui.

The Laoliu before house door is cultivated however as before silent, the shoot that other tree strike give olivine beside its unlike, leap up is using abundant spring in the air. On the bark of that dust-colour, it is the moss of brown green completely, lose sight of an opportunity of survival.

"Alas, this often is cultivated be afraid of is or else can sprout. "Father is feeling tree body with the hand of overgrow callosity, saying mutteringly. His look very dignified, very blue also, let a person look total meeting extensive removes in the heart acerb.

In my impression, father too old like that tree. He is a pure farmer, deeply root at land, all the year round works. Although rise to suffer from from more than 30 years old,went up serious Jia Kang, but he however not demit is careladen, insist to offer I and little brother study with scanty income, make we cast off the confine of land finally.

Till that day, be being slept lightly by a hurried phone ring in me of noon break, the mother is hit. She tells me father fainted this morning, ask I can come home now. Although the mother does his utmost to concealing a heart to frighten mediumly, but the voice that I can find her some quiver.

Hurried back hurriedly when me when the home is medium, the little brother also came back. Father already come to come over, lying on kang, complexion is very cadaverous, the eye is small shutting, canthus dash forward dash forward the ground is beating. "The Liu Shu of the house before thanksing to, discover your pa faint is in pear tree garden, otherwise... of the eye socket Gong Gong of " mother.

When I and little brother busy move sends father to go to a hospital when the mouth, the wife calls me at the same time, hand stealthily me one crowded money, 800 yuan, be all cash in the home. Although the child is small still, the place that spends money in the home is very much, but the wife still was taken. I appreciated the ground to see a wife, had received fund.

In the town the hospital dripped a few days condole bottle, father slightly a few better, but the pathogeny still is checked do not come out. After I and little brother discuss, the decision takes father to go to the hospital in city diagnose.

After 3 days, I am being put from 3000 money that lend over there farther-in-law, the little brother is driving the classmate's car, taking father to set out, because the mother is carsick I did not let her come along.

Weather is good that day, sunshine warm is being illuminated warmly, wind is very gentle also.

After two many hours, reached the central hospital in city eventually. Registration, make cost, inspection... underground comes, final doctor diagnose: Because Jia Kang brings the heart that have to decline, without the remedial method of what specially good effect, can come home only go slowly take good care of sb.

Gave the entrance door of the hospital, my phone rang. The mother is asking the circumstance of the examination carefully, listen reach, in her heart very anxious, very afraid also.

"Your pa if that ill word, do not tell him first, be no good we comes back, "The mother pauses, "Operation expenses is too expensive, we am taken do not rise, say you just also got married again, do not have so much money... "

Heard maternal word, my heart ased if to be plunged into by what thing, give birth to unripe pain. I tell her father's disease is not she thinks at once in that way, do not have life danger temporarily, the mother just hanged a phone hesitantly.

Go in roar city, in street corner is in, father stopped suddenly footstep. He uses the button above the hand unlock dress that shakes large rope shaking large rope, drew out a wraps bulgingly handkerchief from close-fitting bag, pink impression fade gets some to become white, a brooch still was fastened designedly above.

After opening the handkerchief slowly when father, the money with differ size of a pile of par value appears to mix in me before the little brother: Most outside those who have a few Zhang Baiyuan denomination, it is next 50 yuan, 20 yuan... the smallest still have 5 yuan, one Zhang Zhang is folded trimly put together. This should be he and mother the income that this one spring works.

Weather as before the fine is good, wind is not big, but I feel sunshine is special however dazzling, of same dazzling still have that pile of Gong Gong in father hand green green money.

At this moment I just think suddenly, face the mother before setting out to call father back room, murmurring what, it is so...

Father's corners of the mouth is moved, say of light tone ground: "A moment ago the examination did not spend money less, you are taking this money, also do not know enough... " is done not have wait for father to say, I and little brother kiss father the purse in the hand at once rise, do not put in close-fitting pocket to him again by defend oneself ground, "Pa, you are fastened such, let blame in popular feeling afflictive. "There is fog of a water in the eye when the brother talks.

"Yes, have our elder brother two, we had been brought up, you and Mom are at ease. "Father draws out money even, I pressed his hand closely. Feel oneself are very trashy suddenly, study even family unhealthily do not rise, think of parents is for ground of work from dawn to night of assemble medical expenses in strawberry ground work, my heart is so painful that my heart be no good, have a kind of impulse that wants to cry even, but I know I cannot cry.

Before coming home, I and little brother asked father to eat a meal in a slap-bang shop of street edge, father tells me persistently two go almost, do not nod too much. Father likes to smoke, river edge has those who sell Korea cigarette then, I bought " of hill of two " King Kong to father, 10 yuan, father says persistently too expensive. When neighbour uncle reachs my home later, father asks him very proudly to smoke " of " Korea smoke, saying is a son to what buy. Although there is the flavour of sham inferior tobacco in house, but father is smoked very however be intoxicated.

When we return the home, the day has been brushed black. The sun falls to the west hill, horizon it is the rosy clouds that is like fire completely, everything on the earth draped outfit of a suit gold.

"Tomorrow is a big fine day certainly. "Father is considered oneself saying oneself.

I discover suddenly, a few days disappear, that golden in rays of morning or evening sunshine old tree before the door, did not know when to take out pale green Xie Ya already, in each bouffant sail resembles below the set off of rosy clouds all over the sky, be about to set sail in spring breeze; More cabinet like each horn, the bugle of blow life.

"Pa, you look -- " I jubilate the ground points to the picture before father, father did not say, terrified a short while, smile was risen to slowly on the face.

The winter goes spring come, days is on the move, of parents fragrant China already died, before be like a door that often is cultivated. The harships in facing life and pungent, let us go with solid chest keep out, resemble at the outset they caress us in that way.

Buddha says, this generation all encountering, it is to go up the meet again of generation. This generation meets for parental children, advanced age should have cause of what kind of predestined relationship! Suddenly, remember very long before a has read word: To parents, your before I cannot participate in half a lifetime, but your second half gives birth to my general to keep to the end!

In the spring that bursts at the beginning of bud, promise the wind that is side of that kiss side not merely absolutely truly, blow gently and over- , disappear without a trace. The heart that be thankful should be the warm this world that takes away wintry day then, long drought hind is fine soft pluvial silk, constant is long, warm, moist, the tree that lets life is evergreen, open an one tree numerous flower!