On the classmate party after 20 years, when somebody pushs Cheng Xin with wheelchair, I am astonied. This piece of face still has in those days shadow, it is this pair of legs only...
After eating a meal, I looked for Cheng Xin to chat a little while alone, this ability understands her these year experience.
After Cheng Xin graduates from the school, the treasurer is become in a company, the husband is a public transportation driver, easy life of a small family also returns be able to pass.
A day 10 years ago, raining heavily. Because go to work by bicycle very disadvantageous, she removes early in the morning, cook good breakfast, after the child goes to school, she is hitting an umbrella to go to work on foot.
When coming off work midday, she is worn urgently come home to make lunch to the child, go at the same time, searching a taxi at the same time. Did not take a few steps, an autocycle stops beside, the female colleague that cycle says: "I take you one Cheng! " she is driving time, mind is fond of jumped.
The world is worn rain, having wind again, saw drench on body of female work in the same placing rain, she extends the umbrella ahead, want to block bit of rain to the colleague. Blast is blown come over, the umbrella of forward bend held off the work in the same placing's line of sight at a draught, still do not have reaction of there's still time, she was fallen apart heavily, then, acuteness ache let her faint.
When awaking, she lies in white ward, double leg already by amputation. Be obscured suddenly that day before the female colleague of the line of sight, sail head on to avoid the old freight car that come, step on urgent Buddhist templeput on the brakes hurriedly, wet road slips, car at a draught overset, she is swung when dispatch a vehicle, stop a vehicle by applying the brakes of old freight car not as good as, from her the make friends on double leg in the past.
Next a few years, she cannot accept this fact from beginning to end. Did not have the job, cure cost again a large sum of money, the life becomes at a draught imbroglio.
Cheng Xin is about originally strong, became the disabled in an instant, she cannot accept such change, often a person drops tear. Those a few years, she is not a word does not say everyday, it is raucous evil language ground is abreacting anonymous fury.
She often regrets, if did not build that car, everything won't happen, so, the life still is former model, it is good to should have many. But now, everything was destroyed.
As a result of her defect is in such vexed li of faint extricate oneself, also be opposite accordingly the child is scanty at certainly, after the son rises junior high, caught gradually escape the class gets online, the abuse of smoking.
She is even more acedia, often growl tearfully to the child: "Why I so the life is bitter, gave birth to you so sneaking child! " she thinks in the heart even, if the child continues to go down so, living what sth hoped for and likely to happen to still have?
One day, the son's classmaster comes a visit to the parents or schoolchildren or young workers, cheng Xin waiting blushingly to say sorry to to the teacher all over the face. The result that who knows a teacher to say the child still calculates medium, attend class namely love takes a look, but child nature is kind-hearted, oneself are hungry did not have breakfast, the Qian Juan that issues the province gave the fellow student that has leukaemia.
Once the child attends class faint, the teacher is entreated not to notify the parent after waking, because he does not think,let mom worry for him. A word of the teacher, make Cheng Xin special astonish.
After the teacher goes, cheng Xin sits in wheelchair genteel the one tear afternoon, she tells herself, want to dry all tears, also do not weep again from now on. Think oneself can blame the child only, censure the child, can she what model did this mother make to the child again? Oneself everyday heart grey meaning is cold, blame the child however not quite active. It is oneself ignored the child obviously, strange however child is further and further from oneself.
After that a visit to the parents or schoolchildren or young workers, she decides to cheer up. She follows son agreement, the child produces result, oneself study accounting professional work, make this home vivid come over together.
Next a few days, she takes a telephone call, unit of a home hits the past, enquire otherwise to want an accounting in turn.
She sought an assignment later, the treasurer is become in the home, still confuse when leisure went up to fiddle. The son also is taken an examination of attended the college of Nanjing, there was smiling expression again on Cheng glad face, the life becomes again vivid and dramatic.
Cheng glad deep feeling says, oneself are dejected 5 years, within an inch of delayed the child. Wake up to reality not to calculate fortunately too late. Similar experience, similar unfavorable situation, change a kind of state of mind, change a kind of manner to face, gotten result can differ completely.
Boundless on life journey, a few hole won't encounter?
Life falls ceaselessly namely into hole, the process that climbs ceaselessly again. The distinction of overmatch and weak depends on whether climbing quickly. Be hit by misfortune from now on of cannot recover after a setback can be the weak only, climb tenaciously to continue the ability that government goes before higher end is overmatch, and succeed and can embrace overmatch happily only.
In the past had been not changed, but future still can, what you can do exclusively is to stop in time caustic, the thing that does not let had happened procrastinates break down oneself, the person cannot be the past only and live after all.
Someone says: Stare abyss too long, abyss will be answered in order to stare.
A person is like in be immersed in anguish for a long time, the thorny issue on your body is met increasing. Happy and OK develop, anguish is OK also and outspread. Break unfortunate root beard for the shovel, you should escape in time unfortunate, escape more quickly to leave further. Be far from happiness more from misfortune closer.
Fell not terrible, terrible is not to want to climb. Finish of a person often not be misfortune " hole " , however deep-set " hole " in the manner that admires look out day.
