"Double mark " this word is like very popular recently, a lot of people say friend of her men and women how how " double mark " , but actually contemporary parents more " double mark " , even some parents more serious, the child that formed him home which are bad, others home child is treasure " only sign " .
Be in very small when, I often suspect I am parental one's own, up-to-date, I have this worry all the time, furtive in I secretly the birth certificate that has seen oneself, the blood type that has examined oneself hopes to be able to find a bit clues, the doubt that can make a heart medium has a result, also have to oneself manner to parents confirm, but do not have a result all the time however.
Be born in the country, without how domestic condition is good, can arrive as a child big, oneself also had not raised any exorbitant requirements, instead all the time all requirements that this devoir divides his greatest effort to satisfy parents, can change solid really cool detachment opposite, see father sees the eyes in oneself every time, as if I owe his lot, as if there is what deep hatred between us, no matter what oneself do, cannot make them satisfactory from beginning to end. As if he is born is a mistake, I am I do not understand, be born me is not my decision, why should be opposite so I.
Going up elementary school when, the hair of neighbour is small it is my parents mouth in " the child of others home " , my Chinese achievement took an examination of even if full marks, the also has me only maths result that they see is a lot of poorer, obviously the child of neighbour home everyday be no good naughtily, they see also be me only what do not do chore is lazy. Went up junior high school, even if exam progresses, because,I also am only lucky, won't have so good lot certainly next time, and the family's child is degenerative just also did not develop good, can catch up with certainly next time. I want to learn specialty to waste money namely, it is all-round that family child learns a specialty, but when had you given me all-round chance. Went up high school, want me to rest one minute only I do not attend a college with respect to the unified exam, meet in the future meal of be unable to get something to eat, even if the family's child plays every day in you he is in the eye learning seriously, I want to know, you have a good blessing after all to me.
Up-to-date, I am taken an examination of smoothly attend a college, because of epidemic situation reason, this semester learns in the home, it is not easy and OK that the parents that compares a family sees his children is good be in the home, in the heart glad to be not concealed at all, but the answer that you give me, let me feel I am the tool of a mark only, a tool that you can show off.
Before paragraph time, school requirement is voluntary return to school after the vacation, I and mother discuss to need not go back, waiting for in the home, but she says none hesitantly however, be no good, you do not go back how does school work do, hang division, how does the graduation that don't have a law do? Arrived in the evening, encountered hair is small, he asks I still do not go to the school, I said not to go, was informed him to also do not go, the mother says however, the circumstance is not stable still now, you cannot go to the school for certain, your school leaves us this is so far, there is danger how to do on the road. I want to ask, it is dangerous that I go to the school be being done not have? I can disregard oneself safety, of honor permits no turning back go to the school?
Midday, mom says others home sent an ash-bin to be put in the doorway, why we are done not have, I down laughing, say for fun: "Put their home that ash-bin is not good " . And my dear father, gave me a supercilious look, say I do not have quality, I think excuse me, when I am learning, you are being brushed aside tremble sound open sound big the biggest, do you have quality?
I am in the home besides should complete my school work, give you one day 3 times to cook even brush a bowl, wash the dress, live the life that is inferior to even baby-sitter, also be not sensible in your eye, do not work, all the day do-nothing, the child all day long of others home is not worn, go out to shop every day you say beautiful money however them how how good, I go out to ask you point money, seem to want with you millions of same.
I want to know, I after all err what, you should are opposite so I, say with the friend I went cooking every time, they can say did not think of you to still can cook unexpectedly, in people look, I am a high-fed old young lady, but I am in the home,be what one does to be couldn't get however complimentary, still meet even by blame " servent " .
You know not to know, a because of you a word, have after all to my harm how old, you never admit your educational means has a problem, but it is to existing however problem, because look of your additional key point is waited for, I do not know to had had how many times the thought of commit suicide, it is not easy to but I know you,feed me, I still have loving-kindness to do not have a newspaper, I cannot leave so, but your double mark makes me helpless really.
