Ego grows is the process that must experience in life. But actually a lot of life impressions had been built in childhood times.
01.Elder brother. Knife
When we are small, without novel toy. But, whole nature is our pleasure ground: An an a leaf, flower, stone... be us " toy " .
Await in those days, the elder brother loves to play a knife most. Of the knife law in the elder brother lead, we saw the world of a lot of novelty. He can take a knife, taking us to go in the forest, chop the branch of verdure of branches and leaves of a root, a few holes are dug on the ground, put up branch come. With respect to make it a natural little room.
We are mad on hill run, see dawdle collects on a few; See potherb picks on a few; See flower, also collect it come down, go up in the head. Play tired return " in little room " , lay down or sitting, of all over the country rise a little.
The brother says, he was brought up, should build greatly house. Buy head lamb. Marry a beautiful son's wife, get along well. I and little sister admire a head to ask innocently: "Elder brother, how do we do then? . " elder brother laugh laughs say: "You were brought up should marry a person. " we have bit of lose, understand we will be apart after be brought up, it is a quite disconsolate thing...
The elder brother loves to play a knife, also play gave some of reason. The small bell that the ox in the home wears, oneself use the elder brother to chop the wood that come down to do from hill. Every time the elder brother chops what grind again again. We adore particularly sit by him. Serious inspect and learn each other's work rises.
Once, I am not careful, stand in the elder brother's back. I look seriously, the elder brother chops forcibly. The back of a knife blade that the elder brother raises so on the forehead that emphatic hits in me. I feel my blood for the first time, come down ceaselessly from forehead shedding. Do not open even the eye. I feel I was about to die.
I rip a heart to crack lobar wail to made attract the mother that works nearby. The mother runs back to the home rapidly to come, was frightened by me badly mutilated jump. Take canaliculus edge to be cleaned clean at once, scattered ignition ash to disinfect toward cut next. After finding a place for me, mom begins to look for that " cause trouble person. Mom begins to look for that " cause trouble person..
The elder brother also is frightened, the door backside that is in the home hid. But mom found him very quickly, pull him come out paste, the elder brother also feels distressed in my heart, but firm from " on dead line " struggle I what come back, frail and faint, cannot help him.
This one knife is weighed a bit really, from now on my forehead left this scar all the time, still be in to now. But I never had complained an elder brother. The elder brother loves to play a knife, he has done a lot of significant businesses with the knife. Also use knife model to cross a lot of mistakes.
The knife also is two-edged, it can bring profit, but with a lot of worse to also can be brought disadvantage. The scar that goes up with elder brother hand on my head is example.
Everything has two sides sex, zhu Geliang says: "Be about to consider its benefit, need its kill Lv, be about to think of its to become, need its defeat Lv. " these experience that play a knife together with the elder brother also tell us: Want to get benefit from a thing, also want the harm that brings considering it, want to succeed, whether can the result that considers failure first bear.
Such truth gave us in the life course later a lot of draw lessons from, face a challenge, we always are met balance advantages and disadvantages, the selection goes before the rightest kind.
02 corn ground. Doll
Do not have the doll with original style in one's childhood, but oneself think out way. Every time Tian Li's corn grew corn to need, we play " doll " when arrived.
Corn grows tall and densely, we are gotten among them, can discover us without the person. We move back and forth in the ground search. Want to find a most full and corn beard is most that.
Our movement is little and gentle, add effort inadequacy, often want to expend very great strength, ability breaks the maize cob that still matures not completely come down. Our as if one find out treasure, it gets on careful take out personally redundant careless bits, become it smooth and clean.
Emerald green dress, the length of beautiful pink gradual change is sent, make it appears high immediately grace rises.
We take out the crayon that carries, give us " doll " make up to come. Bend curved brow, bright bright eye, laugh at the small mouth of the move slightly.
Lifelike " doll " was born. Be afraid that she is too alone, we picked floret, collect came withered leaf and the not famous wild fruit that fall on the ground. Invite the small ant that goes up transiently. Did together royal " Party " .
Afternoon, in cool breeze, in corn ground. A few small naughty child, play extremely. Later, "Doll " the home that be brought back by us. Can bring us company and force continuously.
There is in every schoolgirl heart " doll " , she is elegant, independent, self-confident. Do not depend on, not implicit. Although do not have a person to pay close attention to, although unknown to public. She still is sending out bright and dazzing ray.
We go to school the road ability that wants 3 kilometers goes to the school. Most fear a winter, the day is black still, I and little sister were about to go out. All the way, wants what often say there is sth fishy through old people small brow, want a course to have the grandpa Li home of a feral big dog. Pass a wide rice field even.
We are afraid of the small brow of that there is sth fishy, pass every time, hold one's breath coagulate gas, the footstep arrives gently not to listen to even oneself. Always be afraid meeting in the corner from a certain pitch-dark, change gives the weapon of a green mouth long and sharp teeth, piece a hematic basin is big run quickly toward us. For this we always had walked along this small brow gently.
We also are afraid of that big dog of grandpa Li home, it is exceedingly allegedly fierce and very agile, night should hear abnormal knocking only, it raises a head alertly to come, 4 look around. Fear it rushs suddenly to cry, chase after worry even, whenever at this moment I and little sister are playing a hand closely, sweat is completely in control.
Passed till these places, we just loosened at a heat, whole person is loosened come down. Then we can begin to talk about some of relaxed topic. Do to corn ground a little " doll " experience, we of systemic heart loosen come down, chatting, the school arrived.
Old perhaps people from only then come to never know eventually, all along is clever we, ever also had done silently such small destroy. I am grown in the little interest of these guileless, the heart also is free and heavy full figure; Content with one's lot and happy. Parents also does not know, once had come up against in the process that we grow such " obstacle " . We ever never also were in they beside had complained.
Later we, learned to want adamancy to face before difficulty, exam take an examination ofing is miscellaneous, sum up experience, try hard next time; Was troubled by contradiction with the friend, also be oneself think method is dissolved; Was lovelorn, firm in cry; Poor, also spend sadly in hold out.
What doing not have to pit is impassable. Because small what we learn to face life already is alone with barren deserted. And can be searched in simple thing comfort book. This kind of ability that amuse oneself is in the period that force of this kind of high pressure spends now, it is our best protection undoubtedly.
03 we. Bicycle
The some day later, there was a bigger toy in the home, " bicycle. " hand and base had not grown enough I long, just began to be able to look at an elder brother to ride only.
See the elder brother carries the leg only, to step on forcibly, the car ran rapidly. I am chased after at the back with what the little sister exerts all my strength ah chase after. The elder brother rides faster more, at the look that disappears in us finally. We run breathlessly. stretchy the look around that the neck does not stay in.
We expect extremely oneself can grow a bit more quickly, how can longing ride a bike a bit more quickly. Go experiencing the wonderful flavor of drive wind dance.
One day, the elder brother is not in the home, the bicycle stops in the courtyard silently. I wait eventually not as good as, pushed a bicycle stealthily to go. The little sister follows at the back. I am learning the elder brother's appearance, carry the leg, the foot toes step on. The drive wind in the imagination and dance did not appear. I fall strongly first was in on the ground.
I went up with this bicycle bar. Trip, ride again, trip, go up again, eventually I can ride to be on a paragraph, the bicycle goes, my heart is joyous Yue pole, sing the folk song that cannot remember words of song, wind blew my hair, my dress...
Cry at the back of little sister young: "Elder sister, you are bit slower, wait me a moment... "
And how do I come down slow still, I want to run a bit more quickly only, again a bit faster. Riding it to run quickly to sealed end. Because speed is too fast, oneself too excited, there was not a large hole before the attention. The car is after a jolt, the large tree by the side of fast Xiang Lu rushs.
I have not enough time to react, the car has bumped on large tree, fall heavily was in on the ground, good ache! Feel which where aches. I lay for ages on the ground, just climbed below the little sister's help, exhort little sister ten million also should not tell mother.
Return the home, I was gotten into house to sleep. Allegedly, painful groan was given out when I am sleeping, mom heard, see me into house. See my expression lies screwily on the bed. And ceaselessly hum move, exert oneself to do sth. shake up I, aloud asks me how, I just subdue drop big big tear comes...
Trip is done not have terminative my brigade that cycle, "In one day is bitten by the snake, be afraid of well rope 10 years? " the style that is not me absolutely then. I still ride later, but be in the elder brother teach below, learned to use brake and all sorts of skill. Again our home bicycle becomes two from later, I also begin to riding a car to go to school. Also not be afraid of again be afraid of go to school the place of the be haunted on the road, also not be afraid of grandpa Li home that big dog. Because of me certainly they are not chased after at all on I.
Driving bicycle drive wind and row, the scenery of road both sides keeps be in back thrill through, resemble gradually parting beautiful childhood, future gradually clarity rises. The future that I want, the strength with pedal bicycle is euqally substantial and strong.
I do not fear failure, alarming come again from the beginning.
04. Adscript
" young prince " have a paragraph of such words: Each person has his tiny spot, but among them meaning however because of the person different. To the traveller character, star is guide; To someone else character, they just are the glisten dot in horizon just; To the scholar character, star is a difficult problem that treats solution.
To me Yan Xingxing is childhood times the experience of that paragraph of Duan Zhengui, it has accompanied me, had hammered into shape I, to prompt still now move I. I am in its how-to below, all the way forward sunshine is forward at a gallop!
