Is loving a person's what kind of way right?

We had parted company, part company before long she is pregnant married. That period of time I am very painful, I like her very much, have her for some time to be carried all the time part company, I no matter how does help sb to get over his worries say, she says I consider a consideration again from beginning to end, I go looking for her, she waits in her dormitory doorway, she also does not see me. Method is done not have really from the back, I can say then we part company temporarily only, if crossed you for some time to still think cent, I can respect you. She also is done not have again after that how to manage I, crossed 8 months to control hear she is pregnant, already 4 months! That moment I am mad, I do not know myself, do not know him ～ that moment wants to cry very much, think somebody can comfort me very much, want to leave this world very much, I do not know I want what to do, also do not know ～ of him what course to follow also did not know how to had held out those days, boiled fast a year, after marrying in her, I also was not sent again information contacts her, but I know myself still is to loving her greatly in the heart, often awake in night thinking associate with, I also had tried a lot of methods to forget, among also cutout her all connection means, couldn't help be being added again from the back. Longing thinks bomb at any time bomb is worn my head, recently a month, I also be enlightened, should forget be about active, cannot lean time. I delete her connection means clean thoroughly again, this perhaps oneself were determined, also feel saw effect, in cutout fast in the time of a month, I did not think her basically again, I become aware it is good to hold out, won't think you resemble putting a blame repeatedly after me so like. But good times don't last long, think when me our life does not have alternate line when, she added me suddenly again, I do not have method to refuse however, I feel at that time, I had forgotten to mix the feeling between her, won't think her again, also be indifferent to agreed to add her! But I begin to pay close attention to her trends everyday however, discover her from the line leaves after adding me all the time. Should I add her? Come to an agreement or understanding does not disturb her, be afraid that oneself sent message to her again that day really. the way that I love her finally is wrong, do not go disturbing her life, take him bottom of the heart only, leave a happiness to be no good? It is very difficult really to love a person? No matter how be chosen, not be best ～ it seems that