This problem, I say simply:
If always think dead, think repeatedly, do not want to must not go, paying close attention to oneself momently. For this, and angst of all day long is disturbed, scared even, bring about a mood not to wait firmly surely.
From the point of this caption appearance: I estimate this person, have force thinking to exist, this is big deeply touched is belonged to force condition (force disease) , kind of fear of angst of mood of be caused by.
If did not see the word that improve, I suggest: Had better go seeing doctor of professional spirit family, basically be to be diagnosed clearly, fasten regnant cure further, reckon curative effect and prognosis are not quite ideal. Especially the family member should have psychology to prepare!
With last person views, offer reference only.