Need how many time, is ability walked out of truly break down thoroughly? I was used full 4 years. Had experienced only, the marsh that just knows a heart can have how old, you try hard go, but go not to come out forever it seems that.
I am the person with a very powerful reason all along, life of my believe in should water comes earthy cover, arms will will be blocked. Although ever also counted second mood out of control, but after abreacting, can clear away the mood very quickly, make correct decision-making. So before I do not believe the person can break down thoroughly really all the time, the for a long time in the mood that is immersed in oneself only without any consideration goes out not to come.
The bang that abrupt prevents not as good as
Say to resemble a bagatelle really, but only body part just knows to many injure a person among them.
The company encounters difficulty, boss firm tone comes, business inexperience, be not handled. I regard administrative layer as main personnel, dying recieves orders go solving a problem, be away on official business alone, in a new city, eat very pallet, approximately mad job 8 months. A lot of people are basking in before dawn the Beijing before dawn 3 o'clock the Shanghai 4 o'clock, in order to show the pain that oneself work. But are you in before dawn 3, has the subterranean garage 4 o'clock run? I am in those 8 months everyday almost before dawn 3, at 4 o'clock when running quickly madly to cross subterranean garage, not be to take a car, however in the evening after 12 o'clock, office building is main with respect to nobody, so the gate is met lock, can go out from subterranean garage only.
The garage that awaits in those days does not have a person, very black, very big, always feel flickering of shadow is in ghost, I every time as far as possible rapid and run out soundlessly, wrong way always still runs when beginning, cannot find outlet, be about to cry without the tear, it is a nightmare really. I used 3 many months to just overcome the fear of next right garages, after all, awaiting me in those days is one still calculates young woman, without so steely nerve.
Tired broke down the body, solved difficult problem, boss also walked out of predicament accordingly, the group commends energetically. I think boss can thank me, cooperate from now on happy, after all the company is executed compressed turn management, administrative layer altogether also does not have a few people. But popular feeling is too delicate really. My job is tiredder and tiredder later, odd thing emerges in endlessly, make me almost suffocative, the body and spirit were maintained the limit. I do not know all the time why the job of do a job with skill and ease can become before such, until one day, I heard the talk of boss and Z accidentally.
Z is my lineal subordinate, concern with me very good all the time, because a deadly mistake has made in the job before him, it is my force advocate give him the chance again. Listen be clear about their talk content that momently I if 5 thunder with a bang support, a lot of things that did not go in past heart before are strung together rose. Boss and Z cause I just know my job is so so difficult now together. Former boss fears I have menace to him all the time, want early to force I resign. And my most trustful Z, want early to sit my position.
I realize suddenly, when I tackle difficult problem exhaustedly, in me the heart is full of when fear runs quickly madly in the garage of the late night, boss been wantinging how to elbow out me. The first second that he recieves orders from my dying begins to fearing I am perfect the incapacity that solves serve as a foil to of the meeting after the problem to give him. Know the fact that momently I broke down, because too tired, because astonish, more because be Z unexpectedly.
Did not feel on the world with experience this returns a responsibility
Letting what I continue to break down is, allow my business that 5 thunder with a bang carry on the head, what to look in someone else and have, perhaps say others is paid no attention to at all actually. Everybody is to feel you are subdued, but a lot of colleagues also feel, duty field not such, by backside disclose knives very normal. A little young fellow worker cares after all far from even produced what job, feeling is the intrigue against each other between the leader nevertheless just, with oneself it doesn't matter concerns.
The thing lies between old farewell head to look, also feel what to to calculate really, because I am clear already later, did not feel originally on this world with experience this returns a responsibility, and duty field, who thinks of tubal others purposely to be treated by fairness. But get because of experience at that time little, another straight downwind downstream, the person is a bit innocent, always like black and white and trenchant, the friend says healthy atmosphere of my a suit for fun. Because before be, the body and spirit had been maintained,also arrived probably the limit, in rectifying an individual to be immersed in a kind of mad mood so, my heart is crying out every day almost: Doesn't this world have fairness? Doesn't the thing divide pair of faults? Be an upright person is there a bottom line?
The person that I feel to be like a whole world in those days Is am sorry me. I even of anger anger remember Lu Xun gentleman says in words of the deceased: I not condonable.
Acuteness mood went very quickly, but break down still continueing, got because of my viewpoint of value severe impact, after I do not know, should grasp hold what kind of concept to be opposite to the person thing, I do not know how to should trust again others, this how of again complete body and mind pay. The painstaking effort with the much in that way pour into in if I never am in,working, made oneself tired break down the body, I won't be subdued so. If I never trust out and out Z, although feel some things are not quite right,also did not think more, I won't be harmed so.
Used just go 4 years full, because want,rebuild namely my value system. That period of time is me a watershed in life, from now on later, I began to often go. That paragraph of time lets me know, reason does not control emotion possibly really, I am very clear on reason how should be oneself done, also know to still want to learn trustful and certain person certain thing ability is happy, but need time lets feeling be accepted slowly. Control no longer when me not when the dwelling place is suspicious, I know myself just eventually heal.
Ma Yun once said, the breadth of mind of an entrepreneur is to be subdued to maintain big. Hear before disapprovingly, spider a person adept in martial arts and given to chivalrous conduct has said early, ability is greater, liability is bigger. Regard the palm door of a big company as the person, should have naturally bigger bear force. After experiencing a few things only, just know to there is how many feel sad in this word.
Need how many courage, ability is OK Yun Danfeng is light
Final can go from inside breaking down tremendously this, the experience that I sum up is:
Above all, avoid all not indispensible outsides to contact, when your mood is abnormal, any bagatelle of the outside can stimulate you. Seek your real friend company, if do not have, must accomplish below one so.
The 2nd, must not give oneself time cranky, one have time to move, clear away a room, cook, irrigate a flower, informal you do the business that what you like at ordinary times, but must move rise. I like to swim, I can make myself heavy enter benthic, at that time all sound did not have the outside, only underwater acoustic, I became quiet. If have more time, go outskirts goes, flowers and plants seeing a flower is careless, nature has cure ability magically. Do not use eat and drink too much will comfort oneself, this is drink poison to quench thirst-seek temporary relief regardless of the consequences.
The 3rd, telling his to break down ceaselessly is normal, time can go for certain, oneself are certain and OK. Not anxious, do not squelch forcibly oneself affection, may give bigger question in that way, let time cure everything slowly. If feel some moods cannot be digested really, go seeing a movie, comedy is tragic perhaps, let he laughs or cry greatly.
The 4th, a bottom line must be decided to oneself when regain consciousness, no matter you break down what degree, want to remind oneself ceaselessly, these bottom lines are not touched. Because brain is muddleheaded when, what is done possibly. These bottom lines can be for instance " do not commit suicide absolutely " , "Do not harm oneself absolutely or others " etc.
Finally, it is OK to there should be in your life the person that total heart trusts, break down when you feel unripe to not have when can be being loved, this person can be your line of defence finally. But this can be encountered possibly cannot beg, if do not have, when break down you should remind yourself more, this world has yourself ability to love his well only.
The world all along faulty, the mankind is in namely originally faulty in ongoing, we can do exclusively, on the route that must go in pursuit bright namely. The life that does not have a person can forever plain sailing, it is under the bang of the life, the person that we grow to differ, a person, want ford countless dangerous shoal, ability grows for true oneself. Experience breaks down tremendously too go by next, you are met more in standing by ideal oneself.
